I don't like people who watch me when I eat so I'm glad that justin left me alone to eat, but why is he so nice to me? Why does he take care of me? Why do I find him whenever I'm in a problem? And why do I feel like I'm interested in him? I don't know how, but I'll stay away from him before it's too late. And by too late I mean before I....no no.That will never happen. I shove those thoughts aside and start eating the food he brought for me, apple juice I actually my favorite drink so I finish it until the last sip. And the sandwich is delicious but I'm not going to finish it all because I have this voice inside me that always tells me not to eat too much, even when I need too much food.
I was fat when I was a kid and people always made fun of me for being fat, dance classes were so hard for me but I managed to lose weight and focus on singing and dancing. When I'm done eating, I shove the warm blanket away from my body and get up because I don't want more problems, if Selena or Amanda found out that I'm in his apartment, they will do something that is enough to get me out of the comp.
You have one chance
I remind myself and get up, when I open the door, I see justin sitting in the couch, watching tv series and he so in to it that he doesn't notice I'm standing next to him "can you take me to the house?" I ask and he looks at me
"if you don't feel good you can stay in my apartment and I'll go to..."
"no, just take me to the house" my voice is cold and I don't smile as I used before. Before I knew that being near him brings me problems he doesn't have a clue about. I thought about telling him everything happened and how his girlfriend isn't as nice as he thinks but no, I don't want to ruin his happiness with her and I can solve this whole situation by doing one thing. Staying away from him.
Without saying anything else, he takes his keys and I follow him outside. In the car ride, I don't say anything, I stay quiet and stare at the window.
Don't talk to him
Don't talk to him..my mind says
"I know you didn't steal anything" he says and I stop breathing for seconds, I don't look at him and I don't say anything. If he believes me he would've defended me when Selena humiliated me in front of everyone. "I know you would never do that but who is trying to make you look bad? And why?"
Your girlfriend, justin. Your girlfriend and my roommate
My mind is answering him but I don't say anything, the house is close and I don't want to start talking because if I do, I will tell him everything and this will only make things worse for me because he will think that I'm a liar. He met me one month ago and he knew Selena long time ago. He will never believe me so I should just shut up and fix my own problems.
"Molly, I'm talking to you" he raises his voice but I still don't say anything.
"can you just stay away from me?" I tell him when he parks in front of the house and as fast as I can, I open the door and make my way to my room. "Molly, wait" I hear him behind me but I don't turn around, I will try to be far, far from him and I will treat him only as my dance teacher. No more calls, no more sitting together by the lake, no more justin in my life.
You can't
You won't
That voice inside me keeps reminding me that I can't do any of these things but I will. I will. Slowly, I open the door and I hope that Amanda is sleeping because is she's not, she will ask me where I was and somehow, she will find out where I was. Sometimes I ask myself if she's a human.
Without making any noise I lay in my bed and wrap the blanket around my body, I rest my head in my billow and without realizing, I start thinking about him. My mind is driving me crazy, why do keep thinking about him? Why? I shake my head and close my eyes, tomorrow I will perform and I don't know if I will stay for another week. I don't know if justin will say yes because of the way I treated him today and yesterday, this comp called The House and in this house judges say no when they don't like you, not when you don't have a good voice. Rommates hate each other, no friendships and everyone will try to find the lowest way to win. I don't even know why I'm still here.
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Lesbian (Justin Bieber)
FanfictionThere's a competition called The House and in this house a lot of hate goes on, a lot of people hate each other and a lot of feelings grow. feelings that might die because of Lesbian. read to know what I'm talking about.
