Lesbian (Justin Bieber)

Chapter 38

"You have no idea how much I feel guilty and...I just feel horrible for not believing you and helping you when you were going through that, Fredo and Sam told me everything" he breaks the eye contact and looks down, he loses his smile.

"it's not your fault because I didn't tell you, but I wish you listened to me when I tried to talk to you, maybe things would've been different, maybe you could've helped me. What you said was...hurtful" I look away and feel my cheeks getting wet, I'm crying already.

"But I'm sorry for lying to you, I'm really sorry" I whisper and wip the tears but I know that he heard what I said.

I remember how shocked he was in the elevator and how rude I was when I rejected him, that lie hurt me as much as it hurt him. Or maybe even more.

"No no you shouldn't be sorry, they forced you to lie because of me. Because I wanted to be close to you, it's not your fault. I'm sorry for all the hard time you've been through because of me, I'm sorry for every time you cried because of me, god..I'm really sorry" I feel his eyes on me and I turn around to face him with watery eyes, he looks at me and I can see how sorry he is, I can see the guilt and sadness.

I do the only thing that can show forgiveness and can comfort both of us, I step closer to wraps my arms around him and he immediately hugs me back and his strong arms make the hug even tighter. His chest is strong yet it makes me feel like I'm the right place, this feels so comfortable and I can't open my eyes. I don't want to open my eyes.

I keep my head close to his neck as his hand makes circles in my back to comfort me "I wanted to tell you how they treated me but I was...scared, I thought you wouldn't believe me because you've known them for a long time, I'm just a girl you met two months ago" I confess still hugging him and he tightens his grip around me.

I'm not afraid anymore, he's here. Justin is here hugging me and I know that I can tell him everything because he will believe me.

"You should've told me everything because I would've believed you, I could've helped you if you did" justin says softly and he slowly pulls back to face me, we're so close and I struggle with keeping my eyes off his soft pink lips. He opens his hand and I look down to see what's in his hand, it's a necklace. It's a simple silver necklace but it looks beautiful, he takes it and I hold my hair up so he can help me with putting it on.

Smiling, he gets closer to put it on and my heart starts racing, I know that he's focused on the necklace but I'm focused on his lips. I wonder if Fredo told him about my feelings.

When he finally puts it on he looks at me and smiles but the way his face is so close to mine makes it hard for me to act normal, but I manage to smile back. "happy birthday, Molly. I hope that this year brings the best for you and I just want you to forget the hard time you've been through, getting bullied and having to do something you don't want to do is something nobody should experience and you have no idea how much I feel guilty. You experienced that because of me and the worst thing is that I had no idea, I wanted you to be close to me, I wanted to see you every day and I had no idea that what I wanted caused all this. But I still want you close, I still want to see you every day and every minute because...I love you".

When he's done speaking I feel tears in my eyes and this time it's not because I'm sad, it's not because I'm broken. It's because I'm happy. I'm really happy. I feel like none of the things I've experienced will ever happen to me because I have justin, because I left that horrible house and I'll never think about going back.

He wips the tears with his thumb and when I look at his eyes I don't see happiness, his face looks a bit sad and the way he said I Love You was not like the way he said it when I was in his apartment. He looks at my lips for seconds but then shakes his head and looks at my eyes. Yeah Fredo didn't tell him.