But the issue is not if he likes me or not. Just the fact that he doesn't want to make the first move and I'm utterly terrified to make the first move with him. Because that means putting myself out there. And I think that the sting of rejection would break me in half. And I can't blame him, he's young and dumb. And I don't know how to go about it either.
When I ignore him, I can see the confusion and hurt on his face. But I'm not doing it to be mean, I'm trying to protect my myself. Because I keep falling deeper and deeper into his clear blue eyes and it hurts to be the only one emotionally invested in this 'friendship' of ours.
And that hurts so bad, because I want it all with him. I wanted it all with him.
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Him.
RomantizmI wanted to share my pain of losing what I thought was the perfect guy for me. Really personal but felt like it could relate to others.
