levi x reader

captain levi x depressed reader

it has only been 7 months since you joined the service corps but you had made a no friends  and you lost your parents but blamed yourself so you had been depressed for years but you didn't tell anyone because you didn't want to look week

your pov

you woke up extra early this morning you don't know why but you did you look at you clock and you see that it's 4:00 you sigh and plop back into bed but then you decide to get up and get some tea you are walking to the kitchen when you start thinking about you friends that died 3 years ago 

flash back 

you and your friends are walking down a back alley trying to find a short cut to your favorite tea shop when you got jumped by some guy he grabbed both your friends and left you standing he told you to give up your walet and phone you gave him your walet but you didn't have a phone 

he didn't believe you so he stabbed one of your friends in the neck and threw the body at you and thretend to do the same to the other one you started begging and turning you pockets inside out but he didn't care he stabbed your oth friend in the chest and then ran the second one was barly alive you kneel down next to her and try to comfort her but she soon bleed out and died in your arms you sobbed and sobbed because not only were two innocent people died

you also lost the two people that made you want to live 

end of flash back 

by now you had entered the kitchen and you were crying quitly but you didn't notice there was someone in a corner seat also drinking tea you made youself a cup of tea and sat down not knowing it but you were very far away from the other person 

time skip 

you had finished two cups of tea but you still sat there thinking about your two friends that had passed you started to sob head on the table  then you got up and went back to your room 

levi pov

i was drinking tea in the mess hall and someone walked in i knew who it was it was y/n she got a cup of tea and sat far away from me she didn't notice i was even there she had finished two cups of tea before she started sobbing with her head on the table  i always liked y/n she is smart a good fighter and shes overall nice i hated seeing her cry like that but i stayed in my seat but then she got up still crying and went back to her room and i followed her

your pov

i hed back to my room and pull out some old razors and start cutting my wrist 

1 for me

2 for mary 

3 for.... 

you couldn't focuse you were losing to much blood then you heard a knock on your door you panic and fall making a loud thump oh shit you think to yourself you hear someone whisper yell for you to open the door then you hear keys then you black out

 levi pov

i follow y/n to her room and i stand outside the door about to knock when i look down and see blood dripping under the door i whisper yell for her to open the door not wanting to wake anyone up i grab my keys and unlock her door i see her passed out on the floor in a pool of her own blood and a razor in her hand i stand there in shock for a momment before grabbing her and bringing her to the infirmary were i clean her cuts that go all the way up both arms and half way up both legs and some on her torso i'm shocked and sad when i see all the cuts on her  

beautiful skin once i am all done cleaning and bandaging her wounds i lay her down in the bed and sit next to her waiting for her to wake up

your pov

i wake up and it's so bright i try to move my arms but it burns i look to my right and i see levi 

he has his head down and he is saying something "please wake up please wake up"

i use my finger to nudge him and he sits up looking shocked he sees i'm awake i was about to say hello but i was cut of be levi asking me what i was doing i don't say any thing i just close my eyes and go back to sleep 

time skip cause i'm lazy

i wake up and it's night time levi isn't there i start to cry realising what happend i start bawling 

i think to my self why are you being such a child such a burden you"re wasting there time just do it you decide thats it you get out of bed it hurts but you don't care you mke you way to the roof top by now you are crying a lot you to the edge and look down you lift up up one foot over the edge you about to jump when someone grabs you and pulls you back into his arms  you look up with tears rolling down your cheaks to see levi

levi pov

i go to the roof to admire the view i was on my way up thinking i would check on y/n when i get back i make it to the rooftop and my eyes widen as they see y/n with one foot over the edge and i silently run over and pull har into my arms she looks at me with tears in her eyes as set her down on the ground i sit next to her why y/n please tell me i want to help please i care about you

y/n pov 

why does he care so much you didn't care you were so sad you stared to bawl you threw  yourself at him , hugging him you told him everything you sobbed into his arms he sat there with you and listened then when you were all done you looked up at him  with tears in your eyes you thanked him he looked shocked 

levi pov 

y/n why didn't you tell anyone "I didn't want to seem week" she said i started to pet her hair trying to get her to calm down she slowly started to breath normaly i hugged her tight i whispered in her ear i like you a lot y/n i don't know what i would do if you killed yourself she pushed her face in my chest to hide her blush i chuckled at this and with that i picked her up and carried her to my room   

y/n pov

all of a sudden captain levi had picked me up carried me to his roon i was a little scared he put me on the bed telling me his bed was a lot more comfortable then the beds the cadets got he gave me some PJs and sent me to the bathroom to change when i got back and he put me to bed he said he was going to sleep in his office and if i needed anything to wake him up i said ok and with that he left

time skip

after about 35 min you still couldn't sleep so you went outside to the captain office were he was still awake he asked what was wrong and you  said you couldn't sleep  you walked over and said c-captain would you mind sleeping with me in the bed he looked surprised but said ok you both got into bed and he whispered in your ear "call me levi" ok levi he put his arms around you and you blushed and you soon fell asleep in his arms.

it has been two years since that night you and levi stared dating  and you were no longer depressed levi had helped you so much you wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for his kindness and you made sure to tell him and show him everyday.  :)

a/n well i hope you liked my first chapter please do comment any advice you could give down below i've never done this before thank you 

 and p.s i find yourself feeling depressed please talk to someone i know it may not seem like it now but it will get better i know and i promise it will get better  

thanks for reading have a great day

p.s i'm really sorry i've never used this before so don't know how to make another chapter i'm really sorry but i will learn how so i can make better stories in the future