at last. (Strangefrost story)

listen.

"Hello, sweetie. It's been four days since the incident. Wong came to visit you. Even Wanda called she would come. *sigh* Why am I telling you all this? I don't even know if you can hear me. It's the end of visiting hours but I'll come tomorrow as usual. I miss you, Stephen, so much. It hurts to see you like this."

"Hi, babe. I'm sorry I haven't come yesterday. We had a mission, first in these two weeks. Some bastards assaulted at a cruise ship, they took hostages and demanded ransom. They are alright by now. Sam got shot but only in the shoulder so no big harm. Wong and I live in the compound now. It's not as good as in the Sanctum but we need to live somewhere until is the Sanctum liveable so we could move back. Don't worry, we saved all the relics and books. I know you would kill me if anything happened to such rare treasures. *chuckle* *moment of silence* I'm sorry. I should have done something. Anything. To save you."

"Hello. I'm sorry I'm late. It's raining and I got stuck in a jam, some idiots had an accident and blocked the whole of Manhattan. Yesterday was Morgan's birthday party. Would you believe she's 10 already? She's growing so fast. I remember her when she was 6, how she was kinda scared of me but got used to me and then I tried to teach her to read. Do you think I could ever be a father? Last year, I've thought about it a lot, you know."

"Hello, babe. Today is a big day. Remember? July 15th. Our third anniversary. I wish we could spend it as I planned. I wanted to prepare dinner for you on the rooftop of Sanctum like the first date we went on, with candles all over the floor and stars over our heads, both of us all dressed up, enjoying our quiet place. Then we would dance slowly as you taught me *sob* and in the end, I would tell you how much I love you and how I want to spend the rest of my life with you and *sob* I would ask you if-if you *sob* would marry me. *cries*"

"It's been more than six months. Today Peter asked me if I could teach him some spells and magic. How could I say no to him? He stays in the Sanctum with us a lot lately. This week he slept at home once. I think he still misses Tony. I don't blame him because I know how it feels to miss someone. He actually helps me to cope with all of this. He starts to be like my son to me, would you believe it? *chuckle* I miss you a lot. *sigh* I don't know how much longer I'll be able to stand this. Happy birthday, love."

"Darling? Are you still here? It's been almost a year. Nothing interesting happens these days, except for Valkyrie and Carol dating but that's not that big of a surprise, they were flirting for months. They look so happy. *sigh* I still keep telling myself you'll wake up soon but it's hard. Please, fight for me. For us. I have to go. I came to say hi but I don't have so much time today, we have a meeting with the team but don't worry, I'll be back tomorrow."

"Today I had a dream. I was sitting next to your bed, reading, when you suddenly opened your eyes, smiling at me once again, letting a quiet "Loki" slip through your lips. You took my hand and said how much you loved me, we came back home and cuddled for hours. Then I woke up in my bed, feeling so empty without you. Please, come back. I miss you so much. Please. I swear when I find out where Mordo is, he's going to pay for what he did to you. But I can't find him. Last year and a half I spent searching for the man but it's useless. It's driving me crazy. I feel so helpless."

"Hello, Stephen. I'm here.. I'm here to say goodbye. I know I promised to stay but I can't do this anymore. These two years, it was a nightmare. I tried my best, coming as often as I could but seeing you like this, it hurts me more than you could imagine. That's why I decided I need a distraction. I leave for a mission tomorrow. It's supposed to take me two months but I don't know when or if I come back. If I don't manage it back alive, never forget I loved you. I still do. More than anything." Loki kissed Stephen's forehead, tears running down his cheeks. In the doorway, he turned to look at the sorcerer one last time, as if he still hoped he would wake up at the moment.