Nowadays, in order to make myself happy, I try to dress myself up so I can feel confident and beautiful. Not only that, I try to treat myself and but thing that I would like. Most of the time I try to distract myself with people so I wouldn't feel sad. Because I can forget about the past and focus on what's in front of me. But that won't last long. It is because everyday there will be a time that I will be alone, thinking about things that I should move on from. I can't even trust myself to take care of myself. Sometimes I can't even stand the things I do. I fight with myself and sometimes hate myself. But that is so unhealthy. I can't buy my happiness through my appearance. I can't buy my happiness through getting things I want. That's just not the way, and all this time I thought I'm helping myself. This is superficial happiness, a happiness that comes with an expiry. It does not last forever.
Really I should focus less on the outside and focus more in the inside. Love myself and stop being so insecure about myself.
But how do I love myself when I don't know what is love?
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My Mind
RandomA book containing lots of questions and thoughts that go through my mind everyday. Just need a piece of my mind and share it with the world you know? You know, that kind of connection? Yeah. SOUL CONECTIONNSSS. KINDA.
