Messy Room, Messy Life (2/3)

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Sarah

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Sarah

Our differences were way too much, they ended up separating us like this. 

But maybe it was better and would help me be less shy! I would get a new roommate. Maybe she would be nicer and be a lifelong friend. 

I couldn't help but feel guilty about my decision. This was for the best though, Emily didn't want to put up with me anymore. The promise she made, I felt like I was way too much for her to keep it any longer. 

I couldn't help but wonder if she felt forced to deal with me all this time. I practically guilted her into a promise with my tears. Was this just her breaking point?

* * *

I had been getting progressively more and more scared as everyday passed, knowing I'd have to move from Oregon to California for university soon. The amount of times I'd cried at night after Emily fell asleep seemed uncountable.

One time though, in the middle of the day, a single glance at the new orientation flyer on Emily's bed actually made me burst into tears uncontrollably.

I was absolutely sick to my stomach at the idea of starting over an entire life. What if it was just like high school? What if the people there hated me? I might not make any friends, end up flunking out of college, get kicked out of my house and live in Emily's basement forever.

My spiraling thoughts were interrupted by my very concerned sister. "Hey, you okay?"

I was in fact not okay.

I picked up the orientation flyer miserably, and slapped it back down as I blabbered on about how college was coming so fast and all. 

 

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