Roses

Figures

Figures I was just a crutch to carry you through the toughest times .

Figures I was just a service rather then a person who has feelings.

Figures you went off and got other friends , that I don't blame . That's natural .
But don't kick me down by saying ' you know what? You meant nothing more then a carrier .'

I loved you for 4 years , you never knew my feelings no you didn't . But you didn't also know how many time's it's killed me inside to see you with someone who wasn't me .

It got to the point when it came to you being able to give me your love , inside I didn't want it anymore . But I still loved you and went above for you .

And still would .

Not because I still love you but because of the history we have together . Your still my bestfriend no matter how far I go or you do go .

I might be a stupid girl to you who makes mistakes and I'm human . But your never know or admit to yourself how hard I've fought for you .

Even now I fight to keep you here .

You might spit in my face about how I'm making a mistake by loving someone through long distance. And how I'm loving someone through no touch .

But I've not spat in your face not once. I will still sit here and say how much i appreciate how much you tried .

I don't love you anymore but figures your hold it against me for being human and wanting to keep our friendship .

The bit that bothers me the most , is the fact we're complete strangers .

And I don't think I'll ever be able to look you in the eye knowing alone that fact .

And maybe I did it to myself.

But I will never get the support or understanding that I want from you.

Figures that's a harsh reality I'm not ready for .

But it still hurts .

Figures .