Love, Pain and Bam

Chapter 7: Age 15

"Damn Emma, you're looking really good!" Novak said to me the second he walked into Bam's house and saw me sitting on the couch with Ryan. "Great you're here this weekend?" I teased him and he nodded. Novak was nice and I did like him, he could just be really perverted at times. "Yeah I am. We can share the guest room." he said with a smile. "Only in your dreams, Novak." I told him standing up. "I'm going home, I'll see you guys later." I told all the boys before walking home to my house.
Mom was supposed to be home in a couple minutes and she had asked me to be at the house because she needed to talk to me about something. Even though she was a bitch and treated me like shit, she was still my mother so I had promises to be home. when I walked in the door she was already there and she looked pissed, most likely because I was "late" when in reality she was early for once in her life.
"Emma, where have you been?" She yelled the second I walked into the living room. "I was next door." I answered not meeting her eyes. I had learned over the years it was best to avoid eye contact with her. She walked over to me and slapped me across the face as hard as she could, and I know she left a hand print. suddenly some guy I had never seen before walked into the room. "Jason, this is my sad excuse of a daughter. she's just a cunt really. Emma, this is Jason and he's moving in with us. were going to go get his things now." she said and walked out the door. Jason followed, but stopped and looked back at me licking his lips. "I'll be seeing you again real soon darling." he said and walked out the door, slamming it behind him.
I stared at the closed door for a couple minutes. I had a feeling things were about to get way worse in my life. Even though I had only just met Jason, I already didn't like him. he had a creepy look in his eyes and I hated the way he had looked at me. mom expected me to stay at the house for the night, probably wanting to look good for jason, though I didn't think he would care much about anything. I think he's only with mom so he can have somewhere to live for free. I felt bad for her. even if she was a cold hearted bitch most of the time I know that deep down she's really sensitive and if she finds out Jason's using her she will be hurt.
Sighing I finally turned away from the door and made my way upstairs. I lay on my bed and grabbed a book, it had been forever since I had actually found time to read. I feel like I'm always hanging out with Bam and the guys skating or watching them do stupid things. As much as I live them it it nice to have alone time sometimes to read it even just think.
I was in the middle of reading, completely immersed in the book, when my phone vibrated signaling I had a text message. it was from Bam if course and he wanted to know why I hadn't come back to the house yet. I told him I was staying at my house because mom had a new guy and wanted to look good for him. He wasn't happy about it, I could tell, but he didn't try and make me go to his house either. He knew that deep down I wanted my mothers approval and even if he didn't agree with it, he let me stay.
Mom and Jason never made it back to the house. It was always nights like this that I wondered what she did and where she stayed. I worried about her but there was nothing I could do about it since she never even talked to me. After I tried calling her and got no answer I got dressed and headed over to Bam's house to see what the guys were up to, and because I did want to see Novak since he didn't visit often anymore.
"Hey babe, glad you finally decided to come back." Novak said the second I walked into the house. "Well you know I just can't seem to stay away from you." I told him walking over to him and giving him a hug. He hugged me back and even after I broke the hug, he continued to keep his arm around me. April handed me a plate if scrambled eggs and toast and told me to eat. After I spent any amount of time at my house she was always extra concerned about feeding me. She didn't think I ever ate at my house. It was true, I didn't eat when I was home, but I never told April that. She worried about me too much already and I always felt bad about it. Jess and Bam were handfuls and made her worry enough and I hated that I added stress to her life too.
Once we had all finished eating we headed out back so the boys could skate. I just sat on the grass and watched them all, not really in the mood to skate. Rake sat down next to me. "You okay?" He asked me and I nodded. I did want to talk about jason, but only with Bam. He was the only one I ever felt comfortable enough with to talk to about my mom's boyfriends. All the guys knew she had a new one every couple of weeks, but Bam was the only one who knew how much it actually bothered me.
"Em, why don't you skate anymore?" Bam asked a half hour later, sitting down next to me and pulling me against his sweaty body. "I just haven't felt like it." I told him as I tried to squirm away from him, but couldn't. "Well I think it's hot when a chick can skate so go practice." he told me handing me his board. I didn't feel like it but I did do a couple of tricks before handing Bam his board back. "Happy now?" I asked sitting back down next to Rake. "I supposed. You could be pro too if you practiced more." Bam told me. "One Bambam, I don't think that's true, and two I don't love skating quite as much as you do. I don't think I could ever handle doing it professionally." I said leaning against Rake. Bam just shrugged and resumed skating.
I watched Bam for a few more minutes before I went back inside to see April. I was worried everyone would start to notice me staring at Bam, he always seemed extra hot to me when he was skating. It probably has something to do with how natural he looked doing it, and the fact that he wasn't being a jackass for once since he was busy concentrating on what he was doing.
I found April folding Bam and Jess' laundry in the living room and I say down at the other end of the couch and starter helping fold clothes. "How're you doing, Emma?" April asked.
"I'm not too bad." I answered smiling at her. "I think you should sleep here for the rest of the week. Your mom looked like she was going on a trip when she left yesterday, and I worry about you when you're over there all by yourself." she told me. I really didn't want to stay. I felt like such a burden to her and Phil, I wasn't their kid after all. "I'll be fine. Besides Dunn and Novak are staying all week so the guest room will be taken." I said trying to find anyway out or staying there. "Just stay in Bam's room then. If you two ever wanted to do something together not letting you sleep in the same room wouldn't stop it from happening." she said and I signed giving in. I grabbed Bam's clothes and brought them upstairs and put them away.
After I finished helping April with all the laundry I decided to go for a walk. I was totally lost in my own little world when some random girl stopped me. "You're friends with Bam Margera right?" She asked and I nodded. "Could you introduce me? I would love to meet him. I think he's soo hot." she gushes. "Sorry I can't do that and he has a girlfriend." I told here and walked away. Girls stopped me all the time because they wanted me to introduce them to Bam. It was really annoying. What was even more annoying though was when people at school tries to be my friend just so they could get to Bam. Sometimes being friends with Bam sucked now that he was famous.
"Emmy, where'd you go this afternoon?" Bam asked when I walked back into his house that night with a bag of my clothes and stuff for the week. "For a walk." I told him heading for the stairs. Bam followed. "Are you staying here tonight?" He asked and I nodded. "Where you sleeping?"
"April told me to sleep in your room." I told him and he got a weird look on his face. "Emmy, could you do me a favor and sleep with Jess just for tonight. I have my girlfriend coming over later and Ape doesn't know."
"Whatever you want Bam." I told him and threw my stuff in Jess' room before going back downstairs.
I hated liking Bam, but what made it ten times worse was being his best friend. I didn't want to know about his girlfriend coming over or what he planned on doing with her, I just wanted to live my life in ignorant bliss, but of course that couldn't happen. It was things like this that made it so I wanted to stay at my house even though I was either alone or getting screamed at by my mother. Each seemed preferable to this hell of knowing Bam would be fucking his girlfriend while I was right across the hall.
Everyone ate dinner together and of course a food fight erupted since Dunn and Novak were there. I helped April clean up the mess then headed upstairs to take a shower. I was in the middle if my shower when suddenly Dunn walked in. "Ryan what are you doing?!" I yelled at him, wishing there was an actual shower curtain instead of just a frosted glass door. "I have to pee and Novak's in the other bathroom." He explained walking over to the toilet. "Ryan, I think you've become a little too comfy with me. I think we need some boundaries in this relationship." I told him and he just laughed. "Well be happy it's me. Rake and Dico wanted to come in here too but they just wanted to ogle your goods. They want you real bad you know. he said flushing the toilet and washing his hands. "Yeah I know they do. They make it rather obvious. At least you try and hide it." I teased, he laughed. "Yeah it'll be interesting to see which one of us you wind up dating." He said and walked out if the bathroom. I just wished the one I actually wanted liked me as much as all his friends did.
After I got dressed and everything I made my way downstairs and found all the boys watching a movie. There were no seats left so I went and sat on Dunn who was sitting in the recliner. "You don't mind, do you Ryan?" I asked cuddling against him. "Not at all." He told me and wrapped his arms around me causing all the guys to give us jealous looks. Even Bam looked over, but I couldn't make out what the look in his eyes was.
The movie was boring and I must've dosed off because the best thing I knew I was waking up in Bam's arms and he was carrying me upstairs. "You didn't have to do that." I told him as he gently lay me down on Jess's bed. "You should eat more Emmy, you're really skinny." he told me as he pulled the blankets up. "Whatever Bam-bam." I said snuggling down under the covers. "Thanks again for doing this for me Em, I really appreciate it." he said giving me a kiss on the cheek before walking out of the room and closing the door gently behind him.
I fell back to sleep for a little while, I was really not feeling too great, but I woke up when Jess came in the room. "Sorry Em, I didn't mean to wake you up." he told me as he changed into pajama pants. "don't worry about it, it is your room after all." I told him as he climbed into the other side of his queen bed. "You okay?" He asked rolling over so he was looking at me. "I'm fine. Why does everyone keep asking me that?"
"Well I'm asking because the guy you're in love with is in the other room fucking his newest catch." Jess said.
"I'm not in love with him, so I don't really care who he does or doesn't fuck."
"Em, I know you like him, and I'm not going to tell anyone. I know how much he hurts you and sometimes I want to beat the crap out of him for it. The worst part is that he likes you too, he just won't admit it." he told me. I was quiet for a minute. I really didn't believe that Bam liked me, we were just friends and that was it. "Well whether that's true or not, thanks for letting me stay in here." I said finally.
Jess fell asleep shortly after that but I lay away for hours trying not to think about Bam and his girl, but I couldn't seem to get it off my mind. It sucked, but finally I was able to fall asleep, only to be plagued by dreams of Bam with other girls. Even in sleep I couldn't seem to escape the harsh reality of the fact that Bam just didn't like me like that, I would always be his best friend and nothing more.