Queen of my heart (Completed)

chapter-16

Arjun's pov

Time is moving so fast,  2 weeks passed so easily.  Now I have to face my mom and have to tell her the name of the girl I want to marry or else she will hook me up with someone.  I don't want to marry anyone now but I have to.  The one and only option I have is Priya. I have to convince her but my princess is too angry on me to even look at me.  Sometimes I wonder standing in front of the mirror looking at my Ohh so handsome face is it really  me.  Where have gone my values?  Why I became like this?  I should have acted little bit mature and strong rather than falling into deep pit of shit.  I'm feeling like I myself dig my own grave to bury. 

Love. The word itself seems too foreign to me.  I got betrayed by my love. 

My mother left me when I was 12 and my father was so engrossed in his life without any time for his son.  I craved for love since childhood but I haven't got it.  Why my mother left me. She should have taken me with her , at least I would have got my mother's love.  But no, I neither got my father's love nor mother's.  My princess came as an angel in my life when my life is so fucked up. Her cute laughs, giggles,  her chubby cheeks and her cute voice, everything about her is so fascinating for me then.  Her voice is like a lullaby to me, which broke the walls of my heart and she settled so deep in my heart and in my mind. She cared for me like a mother,  she  shared my feelings like my friend,  she became my everything so soon.  I like the time I have spent with my princess.  Everything went so well till I got my medicine seat in Bangalore.  Due to studies and also due to shruthi,  I got so distant for my princess.   But still I used to spare my time for my princess. 

I thought Shruthi is my love and Priya is my  best friend forever.  I felt so content as I thought God has sent two angels for me. 

But how fool I'm to think that way.  Love and friendship both betrayed me.  They both left me making my life shattered.

I'm really confused about my feelings towards Priya then and now also.  Is it love or friendship or pity???  Only God knows.  But I like to spent time with her.  Shrurhi's betrayal ripped by heart but I cope up with that and try to mend my broken soul but Priya's betrayal completely destroyed me.  Why???
I want answers from her and I will get the answers soon.

My love has became a fun talk in my college.  I became a fucking joker to gossip around.

My marriage?!!! It is another thing which happened unknowingly.  On that day,  I didn't expect that I would get married when I woke up that morning.  Everything on that day turned so fast.

My mom called me and warned me to meet her.
After my work, I left finally to face the wrath of my mom. 

" Arjun your two weeks time got over.  Do you find anyone for you? " she asked me.

" mom,  this is marriage not a joke.  Leave this decision to me please.  "

" so,  you can go around whoring. You are not a teenage boy but a man enough to marry.  You are already 32, when will you marry then?  After 40 !!" she scoffed at me.

" OK so you have no name in your mind. Then I will decide whom will you marry.  Be ready for that. No more discussions. You will marry or else you will see my dead body" she left making me shocked.

I would have said Priya name but how can I say when she still didn't agree to marry me.   May be this is my fate.  She deserves better than me.  My hear still says that there is more to the story of that day when I got betrayed by my princess.  She did a lot to me and I will forgive her for her mistake.  I will move on.  She might probably hate me now. 

Our marriage is also not done with our willing.  It is a  marriage imposed on us.  It's better this way.  May be we are not destined to be together.