Queen of my heart (Completed)

chapter-31

Note- a very very serious chapter.. You all will think what the hell she is writing....coz i thought the same..😛 .... Be prepared and get ready to scold me in your minds....

Two things will be revealed here...

Arjun's pov

        I rushed to the studyroom where i hurt my princess,again. But she is not here. Something caught my attention in the room. It is blood stains. I got panicked seeing the blood marks over the table edge.

I   have hurt her again...

         I punched the table with frustration and my knuckles started bleeding. This pain is very very less  when compared to the pain i have given her. She always loved me unconditionally but i always took it for granted. She did not deserve me.

          I strode towards our bed room. As i guessed she is here sitting on the bed with her head down looking at the floor.  I stood infront of her and she did not move an inch.  She just sat like a statue. I raised her head by placing my hand on her chin. 

           There is a  small cut on her forehead which is bleeding and her eyes are  not only tear filled but also blank.  I immediately took the first aid from the cup board and made her sleep on the bed as she is looking too tired.  I sat on the bed at the headrest taking her head on my lap.  I started cleaning her wound and she keep staring at the ceiling. Not even one word left from  her mouth.

       After finishing the dressing of the wound,  i kissed her wound. A lone tear slipped from my eyes.

I am really a monster. 

        I started caressing her hairs and she is still in the same state staring at the ceiling.   I laid beside her on the bed. I held her tightly in my embrace as i am really afraid to loose her. I placed my head on her chest and placed my  arm  around her waist.

 
" princess, please talk to me. I am...i am sorry.. "  i told her hugging tightly. My voice got broken seeing her like this.

       
           Soon i felt her hand caressing my hairs but i did not dare to look at her. I am afraid what if she avoids me?

What if she broke into sobs?

What if she leaves me?

What i will do if she is not with me?

I got addicted to her. She is my addiction which i never want to get rid of.

My life without her is incomplete. She completes me.

" Thanks arjun " priya said in a sad voice. I did not understand why she said thanks to me. I thought of asking her but i stopped as she continued her talk while caressing my hairs.

" Thanks for reminding me,  my place. An orphan girl. Whatever i achieved, whatever i did, still i am only remembered as a orphan. *sad chuckles* . I am really a fool arjun. People like me don't deserve man like you.  You may get good, rich, well family background girl. But you married me. Sorry, i trapped you in the marriage.  I..i...never felt like a orphan arjun coz you are with me  since i was young. I felt very lucky as i am getting some sort of affection,  unlike other kids. You have made my life easier in the orphange and i would be grateful to you for that all my life. When i got bullied in school for my orphan tag, you know what i had told them ?  My arjun ,my prince charming is there for me and i am not a orphan.  Many kids in the oprhange, like me , crave little affection or someone to show any emotion for them  including me. That is one of the reasons for  accepting every emotion you showed on me. I took your love, your care, your hatred and your anger too without any protest. I am not weak arjun and i just..vexed with my life and began to start accepting whatever i got.  You gave me everything and i owe you all my life. I accepted you forgetting all my self respect and i made you as my only world, arjun. You have always been my choice since i met you and you became my life since  i came to know the meaning of love but i have always been your option..one of the multiple options.  " she said in a slow sad voice by caressing my hairs. I held her tightly as if she disappears if i leave her now. I hurt her a lot this time  bringing back all her insecurities once again. Now she might be thinking she is not correct girl for me but in real i am not the correct one for her.