You have driven me to tears.
I know that was not your intent but you are such a intense person.
I get all these things from you and I wish you could see it, I wish you could see that when I am begging you to go away it's not because I am cheating or trying to get out of a lecture, it's because I know that if you stay I'll find a way to make it worse for me.
I don't know how to do what you want, I am not there yet, it's not because I am trying to defie you, it's because you have driven me to this.
Pushing me to talk makes it worse.
I know you love me and only want the best for me, I know that and I always will.
But I am breaking now, and the person I should go to, the man that i should be able to trust more then anyone in my whole life has driven me to tears.
I love you dad, I am sorry, I want to do better, I want to be this perfect girl that you expected to have, but that's not how I am designed, this is not me throwing a pitty party.
This is me officially being done trying.
