the darkness within

chapter five

"I hope she won't become a rogue demon any time soon or at all. It could cost her life and other people that are around her. It consumes your entire body and the body can't stand a chance with it at all. I just really hope that it doesn't do that to lily right now or anytime soon. I couldn't stand to have to kill her or anybody else that was like that or if they were to attack people but right now, they don't do that. A lot of them know better not to do stuff to provoke other people around the city. Hopefully, things will work out with the plan." He needs to hurry because something bad is about to happen any time soon and I don't know what it is. All I know it's going to be bad and it's going to affect the whole city. How I know this is because one of the servants came in here and told me that she heard that something bad was going to happen and she was about to tell me what it was but then the new chief of the military shot her about three times to make sure she was dead.

I can't believe that he would do such a thing like that. She has done nothing to me or anybody else and it's not is right to shoot people without me telling him to do so. She had every right to tell me what they were planning on doing and they can't keep it to themselves by law because it was outlawed over one hundred years ago. Someone had tried to take over the city and failed so since then it has been outlawed. I would go into detail but it's not that pretty at all. That's a story for another time just not right now. I hope some of the people in the military will come and help against him and I hope they catch on to what he is trying to do. I wish people would see his true self and not what he wants them to see. People need to start opening their eyes to the world around them and not believe everything they hear from somebody that they never met or seen before.

Around here people are stupid because they will believe what anybody says. I just don't get why they do that, and they should know better than to do that. I really want to leave this place but right now I can't but for now, all I can do is wish and hope for the better. For me, things just don't like to go my way at all, and I don't know why. They go good for other people, but I and I don't like that. I just fucking hate it here because no one treats me the way I want to be treated, and I try to treat him or her on how they want to be treated. I try my best in every way, but no one even tries to thank anything or me and I'm getting tired of it, I cannot stand it anymore, so something must be done now. I will start taking matters into my own hands as of now. I will not tolerate anything; they will get what they deserve for how they have treated me. If they do anything to me ever again, they will have officially made themselves to be the enemy and to have a ruthless queen. If they complain I will show them what they have done to me to make me go this way and not be the queen I use to be.

If anyone stands in my way something will be done there is no turning back now what is done is for good. Nothing will change my mind not even the man I love. This is the new me, people will have to get used to it now or flat out leave. People will no longer take advantage of me from now on. I will not ever be that sweet little girl I was once before; I have taken the harassment for the last time. He finally came and was taken back from how much I changed in the time that he had seen me last. I told him what I was doing, and he started yelling at me because of my change. I told I could not take the harassment any longer so something had to be done, if not I would have probably been dead by now or something else. If you don't like this then deal with it because I'm not changing, then he said something that broke my heart. He said, "That if I'm going to be like this, he will no longer have anything to do with me." I didn't like that at all, so I left him standing there and went to the castle to pack up my things because it seems like I am no longer needed here or anywhere else in this world. I feel like I failed everybody that I once knew even myself.

I never wanted to become this, but people drove me to do this because I can't handle all this stress anymore. This is my entire fault if I never became queen any of this would have ever happened. Everybody would be happy and won't have to worry about it because they would have never met me. I am done with all this crap that is put on me and all the stress has been put on me for no reason. Nobody will listen to me, so they won't believe when I try to tell them what people are doing to me. I have done nothing to them so I wish they would back off. Why do I even bother any more, I wish I would have never agreed to be the queen to the demon world. I don't know why people harass me; I have done nothing to make them do that, I hope. One question that is always on my mind was it just having my present there or can they detect something about me? Was it that made them hate me or just plain despise me altogether? I have put myself down so much just to get them to like me but it's just not working at all.