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ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴅᴀʏ ɪs ɪᴛ

Warning: mentions of death of a bio family member and heartache. Also happy memories and slight mentions of homophobia and transphobia.
You've been warned.

I dont remember the days.
All i know is that im broken.
I found out Monday.
I cant believe it but its true.
I miss her. But ill make it, i always do.
Cancer, its a bitch ya know.
I think whats worse is that no one told me from the start.
It started in January. Took her in March. They could have told me.
I wish it was a joke.
That family always hated me, so i guess it was expected.
I still remeber how she was always there when my bio parents were fighting.
She held me and told me its alright.
I remeber her being there for me no matter what. I remember her telling me that she was going to try to take me in.
The rest of that side didnt want me.
But she did.
I miss her.
Her and how she used to yell at us to be careful.
Her and how when i came out before chistmas and she took me to get my hair cut and yelled at my bio dad to shut up before he got kicked out. How she continued to try to call me my prefered name and pronouns.
How she smiled when any of her grandchildren were happy. How she helped me dye my hair black because i felt like it would look better than my natural hair. How you gave me and my cousins 30 dollars so we could buy faygo and candy that we all ate in one night.
How she, no matter what happened, wanted us all to be happy.
I love you, Nana.
I miss you.
However, youre not quite gone. And ill burn a candle for you too.
This Christmas, and for your birthday.
I hope the other stars are nice and share their space. I love you..
Im sorry i never got to say good bye.
You taught me how to be strong when no one would. And i love you for all you have done.
Say hi to my friends for me.