My young life

chapter four

  My new semester began well. I was succeeding at icing out people. I was also doing well in class and going to church. Everything was right on track. I had chosen to keep off relationships and just focus on my studies but as it often turns out…whenever you decide to focus on one thing is when most of the temptations cross your path distracting you from your original plan. That is exactly how I began talking with a guy I had bumped into at the campus gate a few times. His name was Trevor Taylor, he was tall, maybe a centimeter or two taller than me, he had a sporty physique which I later gathered that he had obtained from playing soccer for the campus team, and some rugged hair that looked good on him and was left handed he held most things with his left hand and signed in at the gate with his left hand which is how I found out. He had asked me out a few times and I had declined mostly because I was swamped with school work but school work could make one go mad if not well proportioned with little breaks.
Therefore when Trevor asked me out again, I found no valid reason for declining and just agreed to go out with him. He picked me up on a Friday night at my campus hostel at eight. He offered me to pick a restaurant to eat at but I couldn’t make a decision so we decided to cook at his house instead. Coincidentally, we met his friend, Will, who lived in the same location as him and got a ride home.
It was a bit awkward after arriving, I sat at the edge of my sit with my monkey bag still on my back wondering how the night would pan out. Trevor had asked to let me be the guest and he was in the kitchen preparing our supper. He came back with a glass of juice. He had changed out of his outfit into a more comfortable outfit. A pair of shorts and a vest.
“Let your bag rest on the seat “he chuckled pointing at my back.
“I’m sorry… I forgot.” I chuckled nervously as I got the bag off my back. First dates. Always awkward. I finished my juice and filled my glass with more. He served the food as we talked more. It was actually delicious, fried rice and beef.
“Do you drink? “He asked as we watched a movie. I wanted to say no but what the hell? I said yes I wanted to stop being nervous already and alcohol helps.
“Yeah. Do you have some?”  He said yes and went to get it from the kitchen drawer. We kept watching the movie whilst drinking. I began feeling giddy and tipsy and got up to dance at the ending credits. Trevor laughed at my wonky movements.
“Hey Kaymee you’ve had too much let me take you to bed.” He said taking the glass from my hand and placing it on the table.
“No I want to dance some more” I said grabbing his glass and downing it in a gulp. I really hoped this was not how the road to addiction began it was like my fifth time drinking seriously.
He tried to catch me as I lost my footing and we fell onto the sofa. His chest was firm I felt like I could do pushups on it. His heart beat was beating at a constant pace but began to hasten I felt so comfortable I could sleep on it. My heart beat began rising too when I realized how close we were. I looked at his brown eyes and messy hair and it drew me to his lips. I averted my gaze from his and smiled at the floor. This feeling was weird and indescribable. He had the kind of gaze that felt like he could look into your soul. It was smoldering in a very intense way. He sat up in such a way that I was straddling him. I smiled at him and he kissed me. It was like in the movies I could feel my head spinning but I guess it was mostly because of the alcohol but who cares? It was a good feeling. I could feel myself getting wet as our kissing intensified. He was very hard beneath me and his size was amazing as I could feel him throbbing beneath my vagina. I wanted him and I wanted him bad. He helped me out of my coat and I remained in my crop top. He shifted to look at me.
”You look beautiful” he whispered as he ran a hand over my exposed stomach. I inhaled sharply, I could feel chills running down my spine. The good kind of chills.
“But you also need to sleep now “he added as I lay my head in the crook of his neck. Which if I was to mention was very comfortable.
“I’m not sleepy” I tried to decline but he stood in a single motion carrying me still with my legs wrapped around his waist and walked towards the bedroom. He lay me on the bed, covered me with the blanket and tucked me in. he switched off the lights and was about to step out when I yelled,
“I want water. Could you please get me some?” he laughed,
“Sure. I’ll be just a minute”
“Kaymee sit up so you don’t choke on the water.” He said helping me up. I sat up and gulped the water like I was never going to come across water again.
“I want more. “I handed the glass back to him and he got me more which I also drank greedily.
“More?” he raised his brow.
“No…I’m good. “I smiled falling back onto the bed. He took the glass back to the kitchen and came back.
“So, goodnight.” He said turning off the lights.
“Aren’t you going to kiss me goodnight “I taunted him. He walked back to the bed and kissed me on the forehead.
I grabbed his shirt and pulled him onto the bed.
“You are going to invite me over then let me sleep alone. Am I that scary? “I just couldn’t stop talking. The alcohol was running my mouth.
“Hey I’m not scared I just do not want to impose or give you the wrong idea… plus the couch is way more comfortable” he argued.
“Come... sleep here.” I patted the bed.
“Okay “he turned off the lights, shut the door and came back and climbed onto the bed beside me. I scooted to create more space for him. His warm body was irresistible. I ran my palm over his face to his lips. I then climbed over him, straddling him and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me back. We kept making out hands roaming over each other’s bodies touching everywhere. He unhooked my bra and I pulled it from under my top.
“We should sleep before…” Trevor suggested. I shushed him and pulled off his t shirt. I wanted him, I couldn’t let him stop me. So we kept going, he rolled us over and kissed my neck went down to suck my nipples he traced the waistband of my tights and I pulled them down and kicked them to the floor. His finger traced my lips and slightly touched my moist vagina making me moan and dig my nails into his back. I pulled down his shorts and briefs and his hard member sprung out and hit my palm. I folded my palm around his shaft that was quite impressive. I ran my hand up and down along it and then went for the tip which was moist from the precum. I really wanted it inside of me and he was hesitating.
“It’s okay. I want you.” No further thought was required. I just wanted him. It was a simple decision.
He then positioned himself at my entrance which was pulsing waiting for him to penetrate me. He slowly eased himself into me. He was bigger than anticipated, it was like I was losing my virginity again. It was a little painful but very much pleasurable once he was inside. He moved smoothly letting me adjust to him. It felt great as he picked up the pace and slung my right leg above his shoulder and kept going until my insides could not take it anymore and I climaxed moaning into his neck. It was an amazing feeling. He gave me a few more strokes before also spewing my vagina with his cum. He lay on top of me panting and somehow we fell asleep like that for a few minutes before we had another round of passionate sex and another one and another then we slept again and woke up for some morning glory which was also awesome involving me in a bent over position. That beside the point, I woke up at seven in the morning and my overthinking mind was having a rollercoaster of thoughts. I had just had sex on the first date and that was quite questionable. Was Trevor okay with that? Was it okay? Did it make me questionable? I wanted to make changes to my general behavior but I had had sex on my fist date. But statistics showed nothing wrong with it. I looked at Trevor who was asleep beside me for a while until he woke up.
“Morning” he smiled at me with half opened eyes.
“Morning” his hair was messier but he wore it well. His just woke up face was also fantastic. It made me want him again but my vagina couldn’t handle it. I was too sore.
“I want to shower.” I said in a hurry to get away from him. I had promised to stay with him my entire weekend but also, I wanted to get away before I ruined something else.
“Let me get the bath ready for you.” He said getting off the bed looking kind of confused. I sat there and immediately he closed the door I got up to retrieve my clothes. I walked back to the bed and pulled the blanket back to find my underwear and I saw a blood stain. I had lost my virginity again I guess. I had the urgency to leave Trevor’s house as soon as possible. I covered the stain up when I heard his footsteps approaching. I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my naked body.
“What do you want for breakfast?” he asked putting his arms around my waist pulling me into him. I really wanted to enjoy but my mind was not letting me have any peace...
“Is the bath ready?” I asked disentangling from him.” I will tell you after I take a bath what I shall have for breakfast” I said walking into the bathroom.
My bath was short since I was in a hurry. I got out and dressed and packed my clothes into a bag and walked back to the sitting room.
“Are you leaving?” he asked in a tone that sounded disappointed.
“Yeah…something came up.” It was a poor excuse but it worked. It’s not like he could hold me captive.
“Well, then let me call you a cab “he suggested reaching for his phone.
“No it’s alright I want to take a bus.” I didn’t want to wait any longer.
“Then let me take you to the bus stop.” He still suggested. I could deal with that so I took his offer and we walked to the bus stop together.
“So did I deeply offend you that you want to run from me so bad?” I laughed at his question.
“No. I actually had fun. It was a nice night. I had a good time” I was being honest.
“Then why are you leaving so early? You didn’t even let me cook breakfast for you.” I was having a breakdown and I just wanted to get away from him. I looked away from him and looked down the road to see if a bus was approaching.
“I’ll come back. You were a good host” I smiled as a bus stopped. Finally, I was rescued.
“Then I’ll see you around.” He said and hugged me goodbye. His firm chest made me feel happy I let go and got in the bus.
“Call me when you get there.” he said as I got in.
I alighted the bus once I got to town and went straight to a pharmacy to purchase some plan B. what did Trevor think of me? And why did I do this to myself? Why couldn’t I go with just a normal first date? My mind was in a haze. I immediately decided to consult Casey in case I was spiraling. So I walked to Casey’s place and found her doing laundry.
“Hi? “ I waved at her.
“Kaymee…where were you last night? Why are you not in church?” Yeah, right it was a Saturday.
“Well… remember when I said I was going to just sleep? I did not. In fact I was out with Trevor.” I explained sitting on the door mat.
“The Trevor!? The gate Trevor? Do you even know anything about him?” There came the Casey sense beating talk.
“Well I know where he lives now.” I chuckled. But Casey had a point. I had not even validated Trevor using the social media. I had just pulled some 18 century trust without question shenanigan. What if he had been a serial killer, I would not have lived to tell my story.
“And you had sex I assume” Casey said in a commentary voice.  But it finally made the situation dawn on me, I had had a night of unprotected sex with a person I had very minimal knowledge about. What had happened to normal first dates? Was anyone else doing it? Was it just me? I had a list of movies to support my actions but my life was not a movie.
“Yeah. It was great sex if I remember correctly.” My sore vagina could attest to that.
“Then there are no regrets there.” We both laughed at her remark. But why did I not feel like it? But it was not regret it was probably dread and confusion and a little shame for behaving like a whore.
“Yeah I would totally hit again if he didn’t have a girlfriend” I had searched for Trevor Taylor on instagram and when his profile popped up all I could see was that he was in a relationship with a girl called Marley Ashley. They had so many pictures together. They looked really cute together and had the couple thing going.
“That is depressing.” Casey commented looking at my phone screen over my shoulder.
“Yeah” I guessed that was not for me. Nothing would ever go my way.
I spent a few more hours at Casey’s before going back to my hostel. I did my assignments and was about to go to bed when Trevor called me.
“Hi… I was expecting your call “His voice sounded so good. Just why did he have to have a girlfriend?
“I got distracted. But I got back safely. Don’t worry” I chuckled uncomfortably. I really wanted to bring the girlfriend thing up.
“Then that’s a relief.” He chuckled.
“I guess so” I answered feeling nervous.
“Okay then. Goodnight. Just know I had a good time with you and would like to spend more time with you.” That made me feel happy.
“I had a good time too.” But I also did not want to get in a fight with a crazed lover over him but I couldn’t say that to him.
“Thank you for coming over.” He chuckled. ”Come over some other time.” He added.
“Alright then. Goodnight.” I ended the call. I had made a decision to avoid him and let him be happy with his girl.
It was not in my plan to ruin other people’s relationships. I did not want to be that girl. I decided to just let that amazing night be a very fond memory that I could not further.
Once again, I failed. I failed leaving Trevor alone. Well, I succeeded for a while. A month and a half to be exact. I blatantly ignored Trevor at the gate, ignored his calls or told Casey to take them and make up a stupid excuse for my absence. I really tried to stay away from him as much as I could. Unfortunately for me, that was not to happen. It was mid-December as we were ongoing with end of semester exams before we went home for Christmas holidays. I was waiting for Casey and Tiffany and some friends from class at the gate so we could go to town together for some fun after completing our share of exams when someone tapped my shoulder. It was Trevor. My heart skipped a beat, mostly because I was spooked but also because I was not expecting to see Trevor.
Casey and Tiffany happened to come by at the same time.
“Kaymee lets go” Tiffany called out to me.
“I’ll be just a while.” I said to her and turned back to Trevor.
“Hi Trevor.” Casey called out. Maybe it was not a good idea standing outside the gate.
“Wait that’s the Trevor!” I could hear Tiffany mumble. So could anyone in a five meter radius. So I decided to end the theatrics and turned back to Trevor.
“Would you like to meet my friends?” I fiddled with my phone and smiled uncomfortably.
“Sure.” He pulled his bag higher up on his shoulder and walked with me toward Tiffany and Casey.
“So this is Casey and Tiffany and guys this is Trevor Taylor.” I gestured at them. “I’ll meet up with you later guys let me talk with Trevor” I finished dragging Trevor back to school.
“So why did you run Kaymee?” He asked immediately we were through the gates. While wrapping a hand over my shoulder and pulling me to his side.
“Because you forgot to mention you have a girlfriend.” I answered removing his hand.
“I really like you Kaymee and I wouldn’t be asking you out if I had anything left with her.” He commented. We were making a spectacle at the pentagon and I began walking toward the stairs so we could talk in an empty lecture hall.
“Why didn’t you tell me? I felt so foolish finding that out on my own. Give me a heads up next time.” I didn’t know why I was arguing.
“I was going to tell you. But we had had such a good time and I couldn’t ruin it with that.” He was being honest. I laughed. I didn’t know why but I laughed.
“So why aren’t you with Ashley anymore?” I asked hopping up to sit on the lecturer’s desk. He leaned on it right beside me.
“She left for India to study medicine. And I don’t feel like long distance is working out. So …”He gestured with his hands like he was trying to explain without words. That did not make me feel any better. She must have been really smart and all. I shook of the melancholy and smiled. I thought about how she had so much medicine stuff to do and she was thousands of miles away.
“Must have been a genius.” I sighed. Anyway it was not like they had officially broken up.to be honest I did not want to hear any more about her. Besides, there was no problem with anything as long as I did not get attached. She was miles away, countries away, I mean you’d have to go over Africa to get to her. There’s no way she could simply pop up to Riverview and stab me.
“Kaymee…don’t worry about her” He said patting my head gently. It felt oddly comforting and affectionate at the same time.
“So what do you suggest?” I asked finally turning to look at him. He kissed me. I had almost forgotten how it felt which was amazing. His full lips felt edible. I fumbled with the neck of his hoodie and pulled him closer.
We kept making out and somehow I managed to unbuckle his belt and pull his trouser down together with his black briefs. His member sprung out eager and throbbing and feeling it up with my palm really got my juices flowing.
I went on my knees and licked the tip while massaging the balls before slowly easing the shaft up to the point where it touched the back of my throat and triggered my gag reflex and then pulled it back. I moved my head back and forth while his hands massaged my scalp and ran his hands through my hair. He was breathing heavily and I was moaning from being wet. I stopped for a while to catch my breath and the picked me up easily and sat me back on the lecturer’s desk. Good thing I had worn a skirt and a thong underneath it. He pushed them to the side and entered me. He felt good, amazing to be exact. I clutched him tightly and bit into his shoulder to avoid making a lot of noise. I didn’t last long and neither did he. We came at the same time and I couldn’t help but let out a little moan and he had to cover my mouth. He didn’t pull out immediately and even after cumming he was still hard and still pulsing.
“That was some suggestion.” I laughed softly and lay on his chest.” But we have to go unless we want to get caught.” He laughed and pulled out of me. I reached to my bag and got us tissues to wipe off and we got dressed.
That is how I broke my vow to stay away from Trevor. I mean; staying away works if only equal effort is applied by both parties. I pushed the thought of Ashley to the back of my head and decided to enjoy my time with Trevor maybe something good would come out of it. That is what I thought as I went to the Cocktails joint to meet up with Casey and Tiffany as I had promised.
After that, I found myself going on several more dates with Trevor and I couldn’t help myself either when I ended up falling in love with him. He was really sweet, the kind that held my hand in public, treated me well, took me out, and had stories that I couldn’t stop listening too and the sex was amazing. It was really nice to be around him. But I had gotten too attached which was another promise broken.I was in one twisty situation.