Dirty Little Liars

Falling Apart

Hanna POV

Ever since my mom went to jail I've completely lost myself. I even started to question my own sanity. What has the world come to?

I haven't been to school since she was in jail. Its been two weeks. Aria keeps reminding me that her dad is in jail for abuse, but that's nothing compared to me. My mother made me feel so insecure that I thought that it was me versus the world. I felt like the world chewed me up and spit me put. Her "fake" divorce hit me hard. Having friends with two parents and having people question why I only have one parent.

Caleb has been coming over to check up on me, he even brought my dad over. It was too much to handle looking my father in the eyes. My dad tries everyday to apology. Im just not ready to put this in the past.

Everyday, I look outside my window and just watch as the world move on without.

I guess you can say everybody dies but not everybody lives.

I stopped living two weeks agao in that interrogation room.

Spencer: Open your door

Me: its unlocked

"Hanna!" Spencer yelled coming up to my room.

"When are you gonna comeback to reality. It's been two weeks everyone is worried about you."

"I don't know. I'm not ready for all the questions I have to face."

"Okay but you know dropping out of school isn't the answer." Spencer said sitting down on my bed.

"I just don't have time for learning, you don't know how I feel right now."

"What do you mean? Hanna you need to face the fact that your mom is in jail. You need to stop mopping around in your room and feeling sorry for yourself. You're acting like you're the only one going through shit."

"What are you going through. Please tell me cause I doubt that its any worse than my mom situation." I said.

"Hanna my family hates me for crying out loud. Why do you think I'm never home?" She yelled.

"Okay but my mom killed someone then lied in my face then to top it off. I looked up to her as a role model."

"You're letting A get to your head. Just come to school tomorrow. Okay." She said obviously annoyed at my pessimistic behavior.

Spencer got up from my bed and walked put my bedroom door.

Why can't anyone tell that im falling apart on the inside. My mom was my bestfriend, my role model. Then to know that majority of your life with her was all a lie.

Makes me wonder did she really even love me.