petermj / spideychelle

again

"Peter we need to go, we don't want you to be tired for school tomorrow." said May at the door.
"ok May i'll be there in a second!" Peter shouted.
Peter slowly lifted his head of mjs and mj lifted her head of Peters shoulder.
They stood up and walked to Michelles door and stopped in front of the door.
MJ put her arms around Peters neck and Peter wrapped his arms around her torso an they hugged for a while.
Peter moved is head from MJs shoulder so they were staring into each other's eyes. Peter pressed his lips against hers and she looked taken aback. They let go.
"Sorry... I didn't ask for your permission-"
"Peter. you don't need to ask me for my permission. I trust you." She smiled.
Peter smiled with her. "I trust you too."
She placed her hand on his cheek and kissed him again.
She pulled away and opened the door.
Peter went home with May and Happy (who was staying the night at the Parkers).

peter pov

It happened again. mr stark crawled out of his grave. 'if you were good enough he would still be here'
all the people who i couldn't save were there. crying out for him.
It was around 2am and I was just trying to fall back asleep. I was burying my face into my tear stained pillow. 'shit.' another sleepless night.
i got up and went to my computer to try distract myself and i just decided to catch up on decathlon notes from last year, knowing i'd have to miss a couple of sessions cus of being spider-man.

Morning came quickly. There was a knock on my door. "Yeah?"
"Hey kid." Said Happy. "I can drop you at school. You ready?"
"Yeah let me just get some breakfast." I picked a packet of crisps and went to leave.
"Bye May! love you!"
"Bye Peter love you too!"

"Thanks for dropping me Happy." I said.
"Bye kid."
I walked into school and went to my locker, got my books and went to first period.
"Hey, dude?"
"Yeah Ned?" I answered.
"You alright?"
"Yeah, yeah. I'm fine."
MJ walked in.
"Hey Peter."
"Oh hey MJ."
"Are you alright?"
"Yeah, yeah, i'm fine."
"You sure?"
"Yeah. 100%. Oh uh, i can't make decathlon today."
"what? why?" MJ looked at me.
"Cus i have patrol."
"Peter..."
"I'm sorry MJ! This might be happening often."
"You know what Peter it's fine. Just try make the next one please."
"Thanks, MJ."

The days continued like this for around two weeks. I had just returned after patrol the next friday, when there was a knock at the door.
"I'll get it." Said May.
May walked to the door. "Oh hi Michelle!"
"Hey May! How are you?"
"I great thanks, How are you? What brings you here?"
"Um I need to talk to Peter."
"Oh sure sweetie."
May let MJ in, and she knocked on my door.
"come in."
"Hey spidey."
She closed the door and sat on the bed next to me.
"Peter."
I looked up at her face.
"Peter you haven't been to decathlon in two weeks."
"I'm really sorry. I- with patrol-"
"yeah Peter i know. You've also been falling asleep in class."
"i'm fine."
"Peter don't lie to me."
"MJ i'm fine-"
MJ had had enough. She stood up. "Peter! You've been off for the past two weeks and you haven't told me-"
"I CANT SLEEP MJ." I shouted standing up.
michelle was taken aback by my sudden loud tone.
"I-i i can't think straight! Every time i close my eyes i see Mr Stark and everyone who i haven't managed to save. And i see May and-and Happy and Ned and you! All being hurt because of me and i-i can't save you!" I fell to my knees with tears running down my face.
"Peter." MJ knelt down in front of me. "You can talk to me."
I shuffled to the wall and mj sat down next to me.
I took a breath and then spoke up "I have PTSD. And every so often when the PTSD gets too much i just go through waves of depression and i haven't told may cus i didn't want to worry her and i just get so anxious and i-" I was crying too much to finish my sentence.
"Peter it's ok, it's ok." MJ placed her arms around me. "Peter i know that being spider-man can't be all fun and games. It's ok to be scared. But what i've learnt is that it's easier is to talk about it."
I lay there in MJs arms.
"I'm sorry." I said.
"Peter, don't be."

mj pov

Peter lay in my arms, crying. I didn't really think about the fact that Peter had things that he was dealing with aswell. He's the normal nerdy kid at school who like science puns, not the same one who is meant to be crying in my arms.
"Peter, i think it's time you talk to May. You can't keep this from her."
He nodded.
I got up and walked out of the room.
"May?"
"Yes sweetie?"
"Peter hasn't been doing so well."
"What do you mean?"
I could see the concerned look on Mays face.
"He's- I. uh. Come."
We walked to Peters room to see him still on the floor tears running down his face.
"My goodness Peter!" May said running to Peter giving him a hug.
I helped Peter explain what he'd just told me to May, and we managed to get Peter up and to his bed.
"My Peter..."
I went to get a glass a water for Peter, and when i returned May and Peter were seated on his bed.
"Here Peter." I said passing him the glass.
"Thanks." He said sipping the water.
May got up.
"Can i talk to you Michelle?"
"Sure."
We walked to the corner of the room.
"How long ago did Peter tell you about this?" May asked
"He only told me today."
"Oh."
"Because since uh, two weeks ago he started falling asleep in class and he didn't turn up to decathlon. He also looked like he'd been crying so i got worried."
"My god... how did i not see this! I live with him! He's my own nephew! i mean-"
"Don't blame yourself. Peter didn't want to tell you because he didn't want to worry you. He loves you that much."
May smiled.
"Thanks Michelle. Do you think you could stay the night?"
"Oh, uh sure! I can ask my mom."
"It's just when you were staying the night here Peter seemed really happy and not tired. I also really like having some female company in the house."
"sure May."
May and I entered the room again.
"Peter you should get some sleep." Said May.
"May i don't think i can." Peter said.
"I'll be staying the night." I said. "My mom said i can."
"Yeah, Michelle's going to stay the night."
"Oh ok, thanks."
May left the room after kissing Peter on the forehead.

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