Unexpected Love

Chapter 13

"We can stay if you want to, love" Louis said as he had my tiny body wrapped in his arms. I had spent a month with them, but now they had to go on tour for three months. Its their job, I can't make them stay.

"No, no. Don't worry" I spit out between tears "I'll be fine. Just, take care" Louis placed his finger under my chin and made me look into his eyes; he was so good at pretending that we're dating. 

"I'll call you when we get there, you don't worry. You can call me whenever you need me. We'll skype and you won't even feel those three months"

"Okay... I'll miss you, I love you" I said before pecking his lips, we seemed like a real couple. We were cautious though, we acted like friends outside the safe walls of our flats. 

I unwrapped from his arms, and walked up to Liam who was waiting for me, with arms wide open. "I'll miss you, beaut. Stay safe" he smirked aand gave me a soft kiss on my forehead, then I moved on to Niall.

"Hey, we'll be back soon. Take care, okay? Don't eat all of our food" he joked as he peck my cheek, I smiled at him nad moved up to Zayn.

"You take care of yourself, okay? We'll be back soon" he smiled at me and gave me a short hug. 

"I'll miss you, love" Harry whispered into my ear, I felt shivers run down my spine. I hate it when he does that, I blush and everyone notices the awkwardness. I felt his arms running around my waist as they joined on my back, he squized me a bit and gave me a soft kiss on my forehead "take care" he said in a low tone, just for both of us to listen "I'll miss having you around for three months" were the last words he said, and in the blink of an eye they were gone.

I had to go to work early today, so I couldn't join them at the airport. I locked the door of their apartment and went back into mine to get ready for work.

After a long day of work, I decided I'd go to a Café to drink some hot coffee and eat something sweet. It's been a bitter day, something sweet should cheer me up. The fact that the boys left for their tour is heartbreaking. For the last couple of weeks they have been my happiness, my help, the shoulder to cry on. I don't have them now. I'll miss them greatly this next three months. I tried to get my mind off things and went to the cinema. I tried watching Nemo in 3D but it just didn't help. I broke down in tears, not because of the movie but because of how miserable I felt. Been alone at a cinema didn't help. I should just go home. They'll be back anyway, its just three months. Three months.

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The coffee dripping on the floor, paper towel scattered all over the bed, tear stained cheeks, red eyes, red nose, dark marks under my eyes, messy bun, white tank and black shorts, pillows on the floor rather than on the bed, you could see the pain in my eyes; not only in my eyes you could feel the pain just by walking into my flat. The nightmares are back, the memories, the pain; everything's back. I thought I had finally found happiness, I thought that after years of crying myself to sleep I had finally found something to make me fall asleep with ease every night. But now they're gone. I've been expecting there call for days. I haven't slept for three days in a row. It's been two weeks since they left, and they have only called  once. They must have gotten sick of me, they must not want me anymore. Harry, loving me? When, how. Never he wouldn't, ever love me. I'm too much of a screwed up mess for someone as amazing as him to ever love me. I wonder if Lou thinks of me, if he remembers me when he doesn't have me to cuddle with at night. I do. Every night feels lonely without Louis' warmth next to me. I wonder if Niall remember me whenever he eats pancakes, because I do. He loved the chocolate chip pancakes I'd do for him every now and then. Sometimes he even asked them for dinner. It feels as if my boyfriend broke up with me, but it's just my friends leaving for a tour. It's been two weeks already. Maybe I should call them? But... not now, my voice is husky and I'll probably start crying if I call them now.