I really do hate this reality. This reality of us. This reality that I'm not yours...and I'll never be yours. This...cycle...of loving one another...sharing each other...it comes and goes after periods of time! And I don't want that anymore god dammit, I want you! All of you! Can't you see that! Do you understand what I'm saying?! I love you! I love you...
I want to be with you for the rest of my damn life that I live. To spend every awakening day with you. But you don't feel the same...and you never will. So please....please! Tell me that I'm wrong...scream at me. Tell me how stupid I am. Tell me that you love me. Because right now....I feel like I'm dying on the inside. Like you've reached into my chest, ripping my heart piece by piece and taking it away.
What is it that you want from me? You tell me you want to fall in love with me...that'll be easy. I wake up every morning next to you, kissing you good morning, spending days with you, giving myself to you...what do you want from me?!
I'm confused, hurt, sad, breaking down because of you...and you can't even tell me why...
