Become The Eternal Cherry Blossom

Chapter Two.

Where... Am I?

I don't... Remember this...

I remember feeling cold and wet. I remember water. I remember being trapped but I don't remember this...

Waves, I hear the crashing of waves. I feel the cold water flooding my clothes, leaving and refilling. My ears are ring. Why? What is happening? Where am I?

I sat up passing my hand through my soaked hair. I was at... The beach? I don't remember reaching here. I remember-

Wailing. Beeps.

My head hurts. Why can't I remember? Where is everyone? Why am I here?

I looked down and I've never seen water this murky before. It was clouded, much like my mind and the sea was rough, the rhythm of the crashing waves matching my rushing heartbeat. Why? Why am I here?

Trapped.

Trapped.

I feel...

Trapped.

Why?

I... Failed. I don't remember how I failed but I failed. Where are my friends? I don't see them. Where did they go?

My throat burns. My mouth feels dry, my head feels heavy. I leaned my head back, the light from the clouded sky was too bright for my eyes. Why? Where am I? Why am I here?

Breathing became difficult. My throat felt full. It was uncomfortable. Why? What was happening?

I coughed; it was more of a hacking cough followed by a wheeze. Then it continued, it wouldn't stop. What is this feeling? Why do I feel so restless?

I coughed some more, this one as deeper...deeper... My chest, it hurts. Everything burns, I feel full. Why? Why can't I move? Why do I feel like choking?

Trapped...

Trapped.

Why do I feel trapped?

Am I screaming? I think I am, but I don't know. I can't hear anything. I can't feel anything. My ears are ringing and it's getting louder and Louder and LOUDER.

Darkness.

A thick darkness but I don't feel trapped. I feel something different like I'm... Floating. I feel weightless. Why?

I opened my eyes and all I can see is darkness. Darkness mixed with hies of navy blue and bubbles. Bubbles?

Bubbles? Bubbles? Bubbles? Water.

My hand instinctively covered my mouth and I was screaming. I could feel it. I could feel he suppressed feeling in my throat. I looked around and I was... Trapped.

It was such a small space... I could barely move. I can't breathe. Help. Someone, help. Help!

Somebody help me please!

I tried banging but it made no noise. My movements made no noise. Nobody heard me. No one can see me. Why? Why?

WHY?!

My chest... My chest hurts. My feel like I'm losing myself. I feel like I'm slipping away. Why? Why? Why? What was happening. I don't- I can't-

Why?

Fog.

There was fog all around me. It was thick fog, the mist playing and making intricate figures on my fingers. Where? Where am I? I don't remember being here. Where am I?

I could only hear my footsteps. The place was devoid of sound, the fog seemingly getting thicker with each step I took. Why? What was at the end of the fog?

Laughter.

I can hear the faint sound of laughter in the fog. It wasn't a mocking laugh. It was sweet, cheerful. The laugh was full of joy and good times. Who was laughing? Why were they laughing? Where is coming from? Why can't I see them?

Light. Light was beginning to shine through the fog. Did I reach the end? No, it only got lighter, but the fog got thicker. Why? Where was the light coming from?

The laughter began to die down. I could barely hear it now- Wait. It started again but this laugh was joined by new voices. One was singing, the other cheering. They all sounded happy.

I called for them, but I couldn't hear my voice. I was saying,

"Hello!"

"Who are you?"

"Where are you?"

But I couldn't hear myself. Only the voices. The voices never died down. It stayed at the same volume. I looked at the fog, I still couldn't see past it-

A wall.

I felt a wall in front of me. Why? Why was there a building here? What... Was going on? Where am I? I wanted answers but all I received was more questions, the same questions. Where am I? Why am I here? Was there no end to these questions? This doubt makes me feel...

Trapped.

One again, behind my invisible barrier. I was trapped. Not in water just trapped. There was nothing, I felt nothing. Everywhere was white and bright. I felt nothing, I saw nothing, I heard nothing. It was just me alone, again.

I brought my knees to my chest and laid my head here. Why? Why was this happening? Why am I here? Where is here?

Nothing.

There was nothing to seen. My eyes felt heavy. I saw darkness creeping into my vision. I wanted to stay awake. What was past this nothing? Why am I here?

My breathing slowed down and evened. My eyes blinked slowly; my vision was getting blurry. I don't want to go like this. I don't want to leave this place. Why? I have no reason to stay, I have no reason to leave. I feel trapped bounded but at the same time, free. Free to go anywhere but my indecision binds me. Was I supposed to go somewhere?

I can't stop fighting this drowsiness.