𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑵𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒃𝒐𝒐𝒌

- 𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝕾𝖎𝖝𝖙𝖊𝖊𝖓

Taehyung

" Are you not going to talk to me about your troubles now ?" Seokjin sat down the opposite seat to my desk  , crossing his legs while his hands collapsed on the Armrest .

" What there is even left to speak about ?" I scoffed , looking to the other side .

" you seem lost since yesterday, what happened ?you know you can tell me anything " He asked again , not once averting his serious stare from me .

I sight and took a deep breath .

I was unsure about saying anything to him but it felt good to let your heart out to somebody , especially to your older brother .

He knew how to act , and give good advices , and i had no option but to tell him my worries when i had any .

And right now i wanted someone to hear my heart .

" there is this girl i met last night " i felt my face heat up
" she made me feel a type of way i never experienced with anyone before her "
I added before pausing as the thought of last night rewinded in my head   .

How she was so confused when we got into the ride with her , how she tried her best not to look at me even when i was shamelessly checking her out . Her eyes shun brighter than the moon did at that exact moment , and how the wind played with her long hair , it was a moment out of a movie scene . She was breathtaking and i couldn't hold myself from remembering everything about her .

I couldn't sleep since i kept rewinding the feeling of her sweet soft cheek coming in contact with my lips , and how i wanted badly to scoop to her lips and take her for a deep peek .

I didn't know her but she was already making me fall into her charms that easily .

I smiled and nodded shyly.

" where did you see this girl ? " his legs were parted now , his elbows resting on top  of his thighs and his hands escalated down .  . And i was so into deep thoughts i forgot how his glare almost came through me . I gulped

" at the amusement park last nigh—"

" didn't i permit you from  leaving this house without the guards ?" He raised his voice so suddenly , standing up from his seat and aiming his pointer finger at me .

" i don't need anyone to babysit me , I'm 24 for the love of god " i stood up too , putting on my blank expression. I kept a lower tone because i didn't want to anger him more than he was already .

I don't know why was he acting like this for ?

" but you still don't know how to act like one , this is your last time leaving this house , you hear me ?" He clasped his hands violently  on my desk . We had a staring contest before i lowered my head down .

I was so damn frustrated at the fact of him yelling at me like I'm a five years older .

But i respect him with my whole and i would never raise my voice at him . To my eyes , he was the man that i looked up to my entire life .

I only gave a simple nod , trying my best to stay calm .

I kept breathing in and out before i heard the door close harshly .

I sat down again , brushing my hair and sighting .

Why did i tell him ? I should've kept it inside me ?

It was time for dinner , the only hour of the day were we gather up like an actual family .

We sat down having maids serve our every meal .

I was fiddling nervously with the table mate at the fact being only inches apart from my brother .

Jungkook and Jimin were sat next to me to my left while my father on my right .

Seokjin was the one to sit on my mother side , being followed by Namjoon . My other older brother .

My father gave a single swift of his two fingers  for us to start eating ,  but all i did was stare down cluelessly at the food .

" the food won't eat itself Taehyung " my dad spoke . The sound of a knife and a fork getting harshly pushed down on the table made me flinch .

And it did to everyone else around the table .

" your brother told me and this is your last time moving an inch out of this house without your guards . Your direction will always be home , company then back home . Understood?" He exclaimed

" i am not going to repeat myself all the time for you , you have an image to keep but all you do is keep on ruining it even more . I'm done with your disappointing behaviors kid , why can't you be more like your brothers " he yelled again , hitting his hand against the table in utter frustration.

Everyone fell silent , watching us . I was done , so done of being the disappointment of our family . All i did was trying to live my own life not what he have had planned for me .

I pushed the chair out and put the napkin down .

" i am not doing that father , and I'm sorry because I'm not smart or bright or good at handling and breaking things nor am i what you have expected . I am just a disappointment to the sake of this family and i'm aware of it " i clenched my jaw and closed my hand in a fist . I took a deep breath before walking away from the table .

I heard my name being called for until it no longer roamed in the house when i got into my room .

Maybe living in a palace and owning so much money and power weren't bad .

But all i wanted was to live like how i used to . Fall in love and experience feelings other than nothingness .

Live up to my age wasn't that hard .

I fell on my bed , staring blankly at my ceiling . I fixed my gaze at a spot and drifted away .

I wasn't able to feel sad when i thought of her . All i felt was happiness.

I was extremely exited .

And it all took me one single word to feel alright .

It was so simple yet so beautiful.

" Miandra " i chuckled .