Struggles

Chapter 2

Chloe's POV

I woke up the next morning cuddled up next to Jamie, but I couldn't remember why. I sat up and that is when everything hit me. My parents had gotten into a car accident and died, Isaac had gone to the hospital to confirm their bodies today.  I got out of bed leaving Jamie there and walked over to the bathroom. I jumped into the shower and washed my hair and body, I started crying again. I finished in the shower and got out wrapping myself in a towel, I looked up into the mirror. I looked like shit, I was taken out of my thought by a knock on the door and someone calling my name. 

"Chloe"

"I'll be out in a minute I just got out of the shower"

I heard Jamie say ok and heard him walk away. I walked over to the door and opened it slowly walking to my room. I closed the door and headed over to my closet. I grabbed a sweater and a pair or sweatpants. Once I put them on I got back into my bed and just laid there thinking of everything. My parents were never home but I still loved them, they were my parents after all. I didn't know what was going to happen next or where I was going. Isaac was 19 so he could probably get custody but I don't know. 

Two day later

Today was my parents funeral and I didn't want to get out of bed. I can't say goodbye yet I don't think I can handle it. Someone knocked on my door and I looked over to see it slowly opening. I seen it was Jamie and he slowly walked over to me not realizing I was awake. 

"I'm awake you know"

I heard him sadly chuckle and sit on my bed next to me. 

"You need to get ready Chloe, I know it is a sad day but you still need to get ready."

I groaned but rolled out of bed heading back to the bathroom. I was still in the same clothes as I was two days ago. I haven't left my bed or ate anything since then. I started the shower and walked over to the laundry basket. I stripped out of my clothes and grabbed a towel off of the shelf near by. I put the towel on the ground next to the shower and hopped in just sitting there. I put my head in the falling water and slowly ran my fingers through my hair. I grabbed my shampoo and put some into my hand and then rubbing my hands together. I put it into my hair and did the same thing with my conditioner. I grabbed my razor and shaved my legs and arms/armpit. I then grabbed my body wash and put some into my hand slowly washing my body. Once I wash done I turned the shower off and opened the shower curtain grabbing my towel. 

I wrapped my towel around my body and walked over to the vanity. I opened my drawer and seen a box full of razor blades. I picked it up and looked at it for a couple minutes before opening the box. I grabbed one of the blades out and putting the box back in the drawer. I put the razor blade up to my arm and made a semi deep cut on my arm. I did a total of three cuts on each arm before throwing away the blade. I then washed my arm wincing in pain from the water hitting my new cuts. I walked over to the door opening it headed to my room across the hall. 

I walked over to my closet and grabbed a black long sleeve dress and walking over to my bed. I threw the shirt on my bed and walked back to my closet grabbed some black flats. I finished drying off and then went back over to my bed. I put the dress on along with my shoes then walked back to the bathroom. 

I put the towel into the hamper and then walked back over to the vanity. I grabbed my makeup bag and pulled out everything I would need. I put on a nude color eye shadow along with a light brown eye shadow. I also put on a light pink lip gloss and some mascara. I brushed my hair and blow dried it along with straightened it. 

I walked downstairs to see all of my brothers sitting on the couch in the tuxes. Jamie looked over and seen me walking downstairs. He stood up which got the attention of my other two brothers and they stood up as well. we headed towards the garage door and walked out getting into Isaac's car. I sat in the back next to Jamie well Isaac drove and Andrew was sitting in the passenger seat. 

Isaac pulled out of the garage and headed towards the grave yard to bury my parents in their graves. We decided not to have a memorial service because they were never big people on that and just wanted a small gathering at the grave yard. 

After we said goodbye and put my parents in their graves we started walking to the car. Issac got stopped by someone in a black suit. They talked for a while before he headed back towards us telling us that it was someone from the court house.

"They want to talk to me about getting full guardianship over the three of you."

I was happy that they weren't going to separate us because I don't think we could handle anymore  of a difference in this family.