Best Friends?

Just A Distraction

Mazy

"What happened?" Liam asked as I tried wiping my tears away, "What in the world was that little display you two just made?"

I couldn't think. It was getting hard to breath. I needed to get out of here, now, or I wouldn't make it much longer. I had to get fresh air.

Without even realizing it, my legs had started to carry me out of the door, out into the cooling fall air. It felt amazing against my clammy forehead. I gripped the hand railing as the door opened behind me, Liam leaning next to me.

"Mazy," he whispered, "You've got to tell me what's going on. I can't help you if you don't tell me what this about."

I stood silent for a few more seconds as I thought. He could help without saying a word, all he had to do was not push me away.

I looked up at him, his back leaning on the bar, and grabbed his hands, wrapping them around me as I laid my head on his chest.

"This is how you can help me," I replied weakly, "Just hold me." His hold on me tightened in compliance, and he laid his cheek on top of my head.

He sighed quietly. "This, I can do. I still wish you would tell me what this is all about." I just shook my head, really not wanting to relive it. "Okay, but will you when you're ready?"

I looked up to face him again, ignoring the fact that our faces were mere inches apart. He really was beautiful. Why couldn't I love him? He was smart, kind, absolutely gorgeous, and really funny. We'd gotten close the passed few weeks, and it would be totally possible for us to work out. I could easily fall for him if I could just forget Luke.

My gaze left his eyes to meet his lips, leaning in slowly. Glancing back up once more, my mouth met his. He instantly reacted to the touch, bringing his hands to my hair and moving his lips gracefully with mine.

It got my mind off the situation for a little while. Until he whispered my name, and I opened my eyes to see blue eyes looking at mine. I jumped back, not wanting to repeat what happened Monday. I couldn't let that happen again, not after the major fight we just had. He won't win this so easily, not because I can't control my actions around him.

"What is it?" Liam asked. Only when he said it, it came out of Luke's mouth.

Wait, it isn't Luke. It was Liam, the entire time. Luke left, he is gone, he left you alone. Liam is here with you, but that's not enough. Because it isn't Luke.

I breathed heavily, leaning against the door. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that. I need to go. My Mom must be wondering where I am."

"No, Mazy, don't apologize," he said hastily, trying to stop my attempts at opening the door, "I've wanted to kiss you since we ran into each other five weeks ago. I am not complaining. I just can't help but feel like I'm just a distraction..."

That's because you are...

I faced the ground, not wanting to see his face. I knew exactly why I kissed him. That was my intention the entire time, to distract me. No matter how awful that made me feel, it was the truth. That's all he could ever be to me, a distraction. Luke was too deeply set in my heart for Liam to be anything more.

At the thought, another chip of my breaking heart fell off. The knowledge that I could never love anyone but my best friend was not a comforting thought.

"I'm sorry," I whispered again. I raced back inside and grabbed my things, heading for my car, wishing it was Luke's the whole ride home.