You & I... Joe Goldberg

Chapter 11: Our time. (Their POV)

(Joe: Normal). (Callie: Italic).

I quickly hop into my jeep. The chair was pushed back from yesterday. The flashbacks hit me. When we kissed. The feeling of your embrace. The way you- Ugh Callie not right now. I quickly reclined the seat back up and started my car. Before I actually left, I went to check our messages. Great. You haven't opened it yet. It's okay Callie. He's probably busy. I hope he's getting ready now. Dear god please. I step on the gas peddle, making my car jolt straight ahead. Am I over thinking? What if you're with another girl right now? What if you're with Charlotte? Grabbing her blonde hair while she moans your name. Charlotte should've been me, Joe. You messed up. I love you, trust me. But Charlotte was your worse choice ever! How could you be so stupid? To date a whore? Who cheated on you. Joe. Me and you are the same. We felt the same. We hurt the same. We are the same. You and me and are completely perfect together. Beck. She was nothing but a bawd. You didn't need her. Neither did you need Charlotte. You keep hurting, and hurting yourself over. You keep fucking yourself up, Joe. It isn't right. I could change that though. I know I can, Joe. Please just open up to me. Show me that you could trust me. You've been playing with my emotions lately. I'm not a big fan of that, but overall I know you would pick me. Would you? Will you? I keep thinking, and thinking, Joe. This isn't right. None of it. But it's for you. Everything I do is for you, Joe. I risk myself for you. I would die for you. Do you know how that feels? Having so much love for someone that will never look at you the same way? Joe. I hope that you won't turn me down. I overthink way to much things, but I won't overthink when I kill you. I'm going too far. I need to slow down. This is becoming an obsession. I can't see the road anymore. I need to clam down. Callie calm down. Don't overthink.

I quickly got into my car, starting it as soon as possible. I'm really excited to go and see Callie. Last night I felt like after all the stupid shit I've done, I actually redeemed myself. I can't wait to tell our kids this, Callie. This is truly a blessing. Thank you. I forgot my phone at my apartment but I'm pretty sure you didn't text back. Doubt it. You're probably disgusted by me? Please don't be. I really wanna get to know you, Callie. I do. I pull up to North Cafe Vista, getting out of my car and walking in. To my suprise you're already there, drinking your iced coffee. You look around the room and make eye contact with me, immediately your face lit up. I slowly walked over to you, admiring your bright smile and positive energy. Your eyes are the prettiest. Your smile completes me. I pulled the chair out and sat down, before looking at you. "Hi." You said, smiling and showing your two dimples. Gosh I love them. "Hey." I replied. "I, uh, didn't know what kinda coffee you want." You giggled. "Thank you. For last night." You said softly. "Like I said, you don't need to thank me. It's my pleasure." I replied, smiling. "I know but it just feels weird not thanking you. You're actually the best thing that happened that night." You said, looking into my eyes. Your hazel eyes. Your smile. Your dimples. This. This is everything. The waiter walked up to us, asking if we needed anything. "Can I get a dark coffee, please?" I said, looking at you then smiling softly. "Coming up." She said before leaving. "So, since we're here. I feel like it's time you tell me something about you." I said softly, smiling at her. You nodded your head and smiled back. "Sure." You smiled. "Well, I currently live by myself. No roommates." You said, giggling. I know why you're telling me this. You're giving me a hint. This is the bait. Im biting. "I work at Nirvana. I also moved here 7 months ago I think? So I really don't know where places are. I've just been so busy. Sorry. This is stupid. You shouldn't have heard that." You said, giggling to cover up your embarrassment. I laughed softly. "It's okay. Maybe when you're free I could show you around." I said offering. Please agree, Callie. I wanna spend so much more time with you. You smiled softly. "Really?" You asked. "Yes really. I don't mind. It's been so slow at Mooneys lately. Im pretty sure my new employee could take care of the store." I smiled softly. You looked directly at me then smiled softly. "Thank you, Joe. How could I ever repay you for your kindness?" You asked. "Listen, there's nothing you could do because either way I won't allow this. You deserve this." I said, assuring you that it's okay.

Joe. You're so adorable. Right now I'm in awe. You're so adorable. Your kindness. Your sweet smile. Your dark eyes that I could stare at forever. The waiter gives you your coffee, and you thank her, then your attention is right back at me. This feels so amazing, Joe. I know this would be us. This is us. I want this to be us. This could be us. I know its us. "How about you?" I asked. "Tell me something about you." I giggled. You take a sip of your coffee then smiled. "Well," You said before putting down your coffee. "I've been in NYC all my life. It's amazing, and I can't wait to show you around. I have no siblings. I also have no roommates." You said, before taking another sip of your coffee. I gently press the straw against my lip before talking a sip. Okay, Joe. There's a reason why you told me that, just like I had a reason. To turn you on.

We've already finished our coffee. We've talked for about an hour, getting to know each other, making inside jokes. I love this so much. "We should take a walk at the park. To see the scenery's" I suggested. You looked at me, blushing softly. "Sure. I'd love that." You replied. "Great." I smiled before calling the waiter over. "I'll pay." You suggested. "I got this." I replied. You pouted and gave me puppy eyes. Save that for bed. It'll work perfectly fine. "You know that won't work. Although I find that really attractive." I said before handing the waiter a check. I stood up and stuck my hand out. You were blushing dark red. Am I really that attractive? "Cmon" I said softly. You nodded then stood up before taking my hand and following me out the door. I twirled you and pulled you close to me. I know its a bit to fast but I'll take my chances.

You are absolutely fucking amazing. I've blushed like what? 1 million times? You always know what to say. And here I am. Being held closely to you. We walked until we saw a bench. You pulled away and waited til I sat. You smiled softly before sitting down right next to me. In front of us was a pond. A really pretty one. It's absolutely gorgeous, like you, Joe. I turned towards you and couldn't help but notice you were looking at me. "What?" I said softly. "Nothing. I just couldn't stop admiring your beauty." You replied. My beauty? Joe I have butterflies already. Don't make it worse. I wanna kiss you so badly. "Isn't it beautiful." You said. I nodded. "It's amazing." I replied. I felt your hand caress my cheek. You slowly turned my head towards you. "Did I ever tell you, that I find you the most perfect human on earth?" You said softly, looking into my eyes. Joe. Joe. Joe. My emotions. My feelings. They're all twirling and jumping. I love this. This is great. This is everything. I slowly kissed your lips. You kissed me back, bitting mu bottom lip. Gosh this is amazing. This is perfect.
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