I'm Here For You

The Day Everything Changed - Part Two

I gulped, "About that" I said

I contemplated on telling Betty why my parents actually are here. My parents are actually here because of their business. They run an illegal business back in New York and it was beginning to attract some attention from the police, so they decided to ditch their plans in New York and come to  Riverdale to start over.

I decided to lie to Betty, it would be better for her I thought. "They wanted to spend more time with me, so they decided to move their business here" I half lied. It tears me apart having to lie to Betty, I've always hated lying, but this is the best for her, I don't want her getting involved with all the shit that's going to happen.

"That's so nice of them" Betty said with a smile.

“Yeah it is.” I agreed with a fake smile on my face.

I sighed in relief internally, she believed me.

"Do you want to go to Pop's after school later?" Betty asked. "I'm meeting Archie there later, I'm sure he won't mind you joining in."

" Sure". I wanted to start as far away from home as much as possible anyways. I didn't want to be anywhere my parents are.

*Time skip*
I'm now at Pop's with Betty and Archie, they were eating while I wasn't. I was so hungry, but I can't eat. The voice in my head keeps repeating over and over again, 'Look at yourself, you are so fat, you need to lose weight. You shouldn't eat anything, it's not like you deserve it.'

"V, why aren't you eating? You didn't eat anything during lunch earlier, you should be eating" Betty asked sounding genuinely concerned. But why would she even be concerned?

"I will be eating with my parents right after this, so I don't want to be too full." I claimed " I just came because I wanted to hang out with you guys."

I lied to her again. 'It's not like she cares about me anyways, I mean even my own parents doesn't care about me. If my own parents doesn't even care about me, it's so obvious that no one would care about me. No one would even care if I die. I bet they would even be happy to finally get rid of me, I'm just a person they took pity on.' I thought bitterly to myself.

"Okay, but you better eat a little more later, you haven't eaten anything yet the whole day." She told me with her face filled with concern.

Suddenly Archie asked "Hey Veronica, can I speak to you outside? It's kind of important."

"Sure?" I glanced at Betty with a questioning look to see if she knows what it could possibly about. She just shrugged her shoulders. So I just followed Archie outside.

"So what did you want to talk to me about?"

"I...I...I really like you Veronica. I know you've always rejected anyone who ask you out, but please, please make an exception with me."

"I'm sorry Archie but, I don't have any feelings towards you. I only see you as a friend nothing else and I don't want want to ruin our friendship just by dating" 

'My heart belongs to Betty anyways, even is she doesn't like me' I thought to myself.

" I guess it leaves me with no choice but to do this"

He pushed me against the wall and leaned in to kiss me. Memories of New York came rushing back to me. I quickly pushed Archie off of me, but I failed miserably, tears started to pool up in my eyes. I can't handle the memories of what happened two years ago, it was taking over my mind. When Archie forcefully kissed me, it triggered the memory, I worked so hard to forget it and now they was brought back up.

I rushed back home with tears in my eyes, I wanted to be alone. As soon as I entered the house, I saw my parents. Shit I cursed to myself, how could I be so stupid to forget that they were home. I quickly tried to wipe my tears, but to no avail tears continued to fall from my eyes.

My mother went up to me slapped me "Why the fuck are you crying. Crying is for babies, you are way too old to cry. And you little slut, why is there a hickey on your neck!?"

I whimpered from the impact of the slap as it landed on my bruise. She slapped me again, " Don't whimper, you little bitch. You know you deserve that slap, and why are you home so late!? You know perfectly well that you are not allowed to go outside and hang with your friends. Isn't that clear enough for you? It's not like the actually like you anyways, they are just taking pity on you. They would never like an ugly dyke like you."

I nodded my head, forgetting that she didn't like me doing that. I quickly received a push and I fell on the ground, she then kneeled down and pulled my hair to get me to face her. She then proceeded to shout "Did you forget what I asked you not to do this morning!?"

"I'm sorry mom, I won't do it again." I said

She released my hair and my scalp was immediately relieved from the pressure. I quickly got up and rushed to my room. I still needed relieve from what happened at Pop's, the memory was still etched in my mind.

I dug around my desk, trying to find an old friend that has always helped me temporarily forget things. After some digging I found it- my blade, it has always helped me to forget things that I didn't want to remember back in New York and now, it's going to help me forget things I didn't want to remember in Riverdale.

I quickly took it and proceeded to add to the collection of cuts on wrist and stomach. I haven't cut in a while, hanging out with Betty has help me forget those terrible memories, a small smile appeared on my face as I welcomed the pain that I was so familiar with, a pain that had always helped me forget, a pain that I've grown to love over the years. As my cuts bleed, it brought me even more relief from those memories, they continued bleeding until I totally forgot what had happened....for now. It will only be a short while until I use it again to bring me the sweet relief from the painful memories.