36 reasons i love you.

in the end

all this time, i loved him. just him.

this week was the end, the end of ashton fletcher irwin. he was a great friend, or he looked to be one. i wouldn't know because we weren't close. we were close enough distance wise.

he was so beautiful. he didn't deserve this.

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*real life*

i walked slowly, approaching the cold, stone tablet on the floor. i slowly sat on the surrounding wet grass next to it. slowly dropping my single rose, i ran my fingers over the letters ashton fletcher irwin.

"you were too young," i whispered. i felt a single tear droplet fall off my face and onto the rose.

" it's okay, ash. can i call you that? we weren't friends, you don't know me. here's an introduction though. hi i'm clover. you're ashton, i know that. you were special to me. you never noticed me but i always noticed you. i knew when you were sad. i felt the pain just by looking at you. i know about your scars. shocker right? i'm no stalker though, no i'm much more than that. i think god sent me here because i'm your secret guardian angel. i sound crazy, huh." i let out a small laugh, then sniffled.

i got up, patting my white dress to make sure the grass came off. reaching into my bag, i pulled out my notebook, the notebook i had used to write about ashton in. taking one last look at it, i smile and drop it next to my rose.

" just in case you get bored up there," i giggled and looked up. " it's about 36 pages long. but it's everything i've never told you. "

i walked away but then i looked back once more.

"thank you," i said smiling. " for making this life worth while. "

and with the end of ashton, came an end to me.

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clover b. grey // ashton f. irwin

dd; march 23, 2012.

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THIS BOOK IS FINALLY OVER IM SO SAD.

I hope you enjoyed this book though. I kinda wanted to end it because I got a bit bored and I have new books!!! dd means death date btwww.

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marie