That's it. It's all over.

Self love?

I'm sorry that I can't tell you I love you

I really wish I could

But I can't.

I guess i just don't forgive you

We've been in this argument with each other for years

Constantly picking each other apart and dragging each other down,

stuck in this constant fight

And I'm sorry

But I can't forgive you

I just don't know how

I don't even know what I like about you

When I look in the mirror

All I can see is the mistakes you've made

And that you keep making

And I can't see behind that

It's this thick fog blocking the light from seeping through

And sometimes I can't help but wonder

Is there something behind it at all?

It's kind of funny,

Someone can look at this and say:

Um bitch are you dumb?

Just stop with the drugs

And stop hurting yourself and you'll be fine

You won't have anything to hold yourself against yourself after that

And i don't even know what to say to that

Because they're right

So i try to listen

I stop repeating old mistakes

I stop making new ones

I stop making all of these stupid decisions

But then it's like

Ok, now what:

Once I've taken away all these things,

All the ways I know how to cope

I have nothing left

How do I stop being sad,

How do i stop hurting.

How do I live life in the moment

And stop wanting to just get it over with

So no, I don't love you

And I guess that's a pretty shitty thing to say

But it's the truth