BTS AMBW/INTERRACIAL IMAGINES

Always In My Heart

"You have been wearing a lot of wigs lately.", the guy across the table said, looking at your now blue, long wig, that fell of your shoulders.

"Are you complaining?", you chuckled slightly and looked over the small menu, that had a lot of desserts in it.

"No, you look good in everything.", Yoongi took your hand over the table and caressed it, "It's just, that I kinda miss your natural hair."

You felt the feeling of nervousness rush through your body, when he mentioned your natural hair. You just mumbled a quiet 'yeah'. Yoongi's eyebrow went up, when he noticed your sudden mood change. "You good?"

"Yeah let's order."

After you ordered and the food arrived, the both of you started talking about different things. You smiled at your boyfriend, who was trying to muffel his laughter. He made you so happy. He was your one and only. And even if he lately didn't have that much time for you, he still made sure to check up on you and you loved him for that.

"Yoongi I love you. I love spending time with you and just simply having you by my side. Even if we don't do anything, your presence is enough to fill my heart with pure love. Thank you for always being there for me. "

Yoongi's eyes widened, when he saw the tears in your eyes. "Baby....", he leaned forward and stretched his arm out to wipe away your tears, but you stopped him and took his hand in yours.

"Let's only experience happiness from now on. Hm? Let's not argue or get mad at each other, ok? Let's just be together. I love you so much, please don't forget that."

He was completely confused, as to why you were suddenly so emotional and telling him all of this. He couldn't help, but to get more worried when you tears wouldn't stop falling. "I love you too, princess. I do."

Soon you and Yoongi left the cafe, because people were already looking angrily at Yoongi, thinking that he had broken your heart or something. Yoongi made sure to hug you and keep you close to him, when you got outside. He asked you if you were fine and you only gave him a nod.

To lift up the mood he took you to your favorite park. You loved walking along the park, to get yourself together, to think or just simply because you were bored. Reaching the park you sat down on a swing, as Yoongi pushed you.

The cold wind hit your chocolate cheeks and blow the hair out of your face. You looked up to the sky and closed it soon afterwards, enjoying the moment.

"Higher, Yoongi! Higher!", you laughed and stretched your arms out, as you wanted to be closer to the moon and stars, shining down on both of you. You smiled as you felt the cold breeze rush through your hair, as you swung higher. Yoongi huffed, "Girl, I am tired, my arms are about to fall out!"

He pushed you one last time, with all his strength, before plopping down on the bench, near the swings. You got off the swing, as it slowed down and sat next to your boyfriend. You rested your head on his shoulder and giggled.

"Are you that much out of breath? You hardly even did something.", you could feel his look on you and when you looked up you saw his shocked face, causing you to laugh even more.

"Excuse you? Your heavy ass didn't make it easy for me at all.", you slapped Yoongi's arm and stood up, stretching your hand out, for him to take it. He took your hand and walked you to your apartment.

You opened your door, after giving him a kiss and saying goodbye. You sighed, when you stepped into the dark apartment. You switched the light on and kicked of your shoes.

After you changed in your pyjamas, you made your way to the bathroom, where you started taking off your make up. You hesitated a little, before eventually taking off your wig. You closed your eyes, trying to stop the tears from falling.

You inhaled and exhaled and reminded yourself to stay strong, before opening your eyes again. Your touched your hair and removed the hair, that was left on your hand , putting it in the dustbin.

You kept doing that, until you were sure, that no hair was about to fall out. You looked in the mirror again, before completely breaking down. You couldn't hold the tears anymore.

You started asking yourself, why you? Why you had to go through all of this? You were too ashamed of yourself, even if you knew that it wasn't your fault.

When the doctor broke the news to you, that you had cancer, you laughed, because you thought, that he was joking. But seeing how serious he was, you actually felt a wave of anxiety, sadness and angst rush through your body. You didn't understand how this could happen.

It slowly but surely killed you to find hair on your bed everyday, to look into the lifeless soul, that was standing in front of the mirror everyday. Even if you didn't want to accept it, you still had to deal with it, one way or another.

But you couldn't let that get between your relationship with Yoongi. You didn't want him to treat you different or to worry too much. He has been working hard for their upcoming comeback and you knew that if you told him, he would drop everything, just to be with you.

It was cruel, that you didn't tell him, such an important thing, until now and you knew it, but you couldn't bring yourself to do it. It would break him more, than it broke you. That's why you kept silent, hoping that you would recover soon and live with no worries.

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It has been three weeks. Three weeks since you last saw Yoongi and you missed him, but you knew that you couldn't meet him, with the state you were in, at the moment. Your health has gotten worser and you have gotten visibly weaker. You lost a lot of weight and you had dark circles under your eyes. Pale skin and almost no hair. You had to stay at hospital to get treatment, but you knew that all of that wouldn't help you.

Your health has gotten worser in such little amount of time, you were in a pretty critical situation right now. You smiled slightly, when you saw your friend step into your room. Minnie laid down the bags, full of food and other little things, on the desk beside your bed.

"How are you?", she sat down on the chair, worry written all over her face, as she watched her best friend get weaker and weaker. It broke her heart seeing you like that and even more, because she couldn't do anything to help you.

"I'm fine.", your voice was really raspy and dry. Minnie filled a cup with cold water and handed it over to you. You took it mumbling a quiet 'thank you', before drinking it.

"Why didn't you tell me, that Yoongi didn't know?"

"I knew you would persuade me into telling him and I didn't want that.", you sighed at the thought of your boyfriend. You wondered if he was alright.

"Well you should have told me, because I would have at least respected your decision and keep my mouth shut. I didn't know.", the black haired girl mumbled, looking down.

"Minnie, what did you do?", you sat up a little bit, as you started panicking slightly.

"He asked me if you were ok, since he thought you were acting strange, so I told him an-", before she could finish her explanation, the door slammed open, causing the both of you to jump up.

And there he stood. Min Yoongi, your boyfriend. Breathing heavily and glimpse of sweat on his forehead, as he looked at you. You could see the sadness, anger and disappointment in his eyes.

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I will try to finish all the Part 2, so there will probably be no new imagines, till next week. Vote and Comment, if you liked it!✨