Eyes For Both of You (Drew Gooden x Danny Gonzalez x Kurtis Conner

I think I do.

  As he looked back into my eyes, I pretended that I didnt hear him.
  "You know I'm not into that kind of thing! I would never date a man; I dont think.."
  He looked at me, confused. I then realized that I had raised my voice and several other people in the room were staring at us. I brushed my hand through my hair and looked away.
  It was silent for a few moments until our food showed up. After our waitress left, Drew spoke up.
  "If you want, we could set up a meeting- all three of us. We can talk about it together."
  I agreed, and we set it up two days from now. After that, we didnt talk much. We just ate, and when it came time to go, I waved goodbye and we headed our separate ways.
As I was sat in the car, I couldn't seem to get him out of my head. I was up for such a long time that night. If Kurtis has a thing for me, and Drew fancies Kurtis, where does this put me in the mix?
"But Drew is married!"
  I blurted out to myself, lying in bed. That thought sunk into me. I dont know why, but it hurt to think about. Maybe I'm overthinking all of this and Kurtis is just being friendly.
  Just then, I started to feel this overwhelming feeling of loneliness. It just swept over me so quickly, and I dont know why. I hugged my pillow and my head started racing. I think I miss Drew.
I miss his smile. I miss his laugh. Everything about him just makes me happy. I want to hold his hands. I want to hug him. I want to kiss him.
  AH. No way. Why am I thinking like this? It's not right. I'm not right. I need to sleep.
  As I slowly drifted off to sleep, I started to see him lying there next to me. I could feel his breath against my neck. I reached my hand out to touch his face, but nothing was there. Merely a fantasy. I finally got into a deep sleep, but I could still feel the tears on my face.
Why do I feel like this?