Part 11 - Thoughts

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(Still Earlier in the day)

I wake up infront of the house. I get up as fast as i can, pain coursing through my body.
Augh  fuck.. what was even the point of coming here..im so stupid.
I helplessly walk back to the dorms clutching my stomach and neck the whole way.
It felt like hours before I arrived at the dorms.
I see Izuku and the couch and walk towards him. I want to hug him so bad..
i sit next to him, and hug him. He seems surprised.
I recollect of my thoughts of whats happened. I cant help it anymore, i try to let them out by crying into his shoulder. He seems really startled now.. i dont blame him, i dont usually act like this, i just needed someone. I sit there crying for a bit before a sharp pain enters my neck. I clutch it tighter, trying to stop the blood. It clogs up and a start to choke. Thats the last thing i can rationally remember before my thoughts were all mixed up.

Back to present

I recollect all my thoughts and start to sob uncontrollably into my hands.
"S-shouto?!!" Midoriya says sitting up.
"Are you okay..?!" He says frantically.
"Y-yea.." I managed i stumble out a few words.
"I just need some time.." i say.

OmL another time skip?! Yep im lazy af its like 11:30 pm

"Okay Sir..you'll be discharged in and hour" a doctor says writing something on his clip board.
Ive been in here for 3 days..Deku and the others have been coming in almost every half an hour to check on me..

I feel like such a burden..

"Yea..okay thanks.."
My pain has reduced in these past days..but not surprisingly its still there.
Just like the old days..

Does he even care..?

These past events have made me start to doubt myself a bit, but i push the thoughts out of my head.

You should just break up with him.

I look over at the clock..2:58 pm
Now i just have to kill time..
I look around for something to do..ah! Ill just text Deku. He'll be excited to know that im coming back!

No he wont

I text him.
-Hey Deku! Im coming back in hour..could you come pick me up?

Your wasting his time.

He replies- Really?!? Your coming back?! AahhH im so excited!! ❤️❤️
I smile at his text and set my phone down on the table next to me. I lie down and stare at the ceiling.

Your father was right about you
Your just another idiot in this messed up world.

I close my eyes, sinking into thought.

You deserved this.
What did you think? Your actions have consequences.
I bet he doesn't even want to see you.

I feel tears roll down my cheeks as i get to absorbed into my own voice

Call him. Tell him to leave.
No one cares anymore
Its your own problem
Deal with it
It's called life
Everyone is wasting their time on you
No one would care if you disappeared
Run.
Leave everything behind
Cry.
Just cry until you bleed
Die..

I jolt up immediately pushing the thought out of my head. No! I wanna live! Ill be here with Izuku..ill be happy.
Jeez what's happening to me..?
I got so absorbed into thought I didn't realise the time.
4:00! I can go home!
I see Izuku run in. I want to hug him, i make an attempt at running over to him as a hug him in my arms.

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