Whoever thought that you can move on just by messing around with anyone is dumb.
I tried to do that. But it seems like my own body and heart is pulling me closer to you even if my mind begged me not to.
I have this distaste feeling about someone that is not you.
The craziest part of that is I'm willing to have this feeling.
Whenever i kiss someone. I felt nothing but disgust.
I was surprisingly okay with it.
But i somehow wish that everytime i talk to you my heart would stop fluttering.
I somehow wish that everytime you smile.
I won't have these butterflies in my tummy.
I somehow wish that everytime we kiss i won't get so excited and giddy inside.
I somehow wish that i felt nothing for you.
