fuck, i'm lonely •|vhope|• <eng>

4.

"Goodnight Taehyung."

Hae Min smiles softly while waving at Taehyung. They lived in the same apartment, a few rooms away so it's easier for them just to check each other once in a while. Hae Min moved in with Namjoon almost a year ago, even though they are living with each other, they alway make sure Taehyung wasn't lonely. They would bring dinner over to eat with him, or Taehyung would come to them for their weekly movie dates.

Taehyung smiles back, swiping his key card on the door.

"Night, guys."

As soon as he enters the room, he throws his jacket and his bag on the couch. He pours himself a water before making his way to the bathroom for a late night shower. Taehyung always loved showering in the middle of the night. He knows it's not good for his health but he couldn't help the feeling of relaxation of the warm water on his body when it's cold and dark outside. It makes him feels safe, if that makes sense. FBI wages is more than Taehyung could ever imagine. It provide him such a good life with everything he could've wanted. This apartment is one of the most luxurious apartment in Seoul, so you could say he's living the dream life. (vante: Can't relate lmao.)  He could easily buy the newest Gucci shirt without even thinking twice. Literally a life that everyone craves.

He undress himself, turn on the shower and enters it, receiving warm drops of water. He thought to himself while applying shower gel. He has money, he has looks, he has a job that he loves, he has amazing friends. But he always feel like something is missing. He can't quite put his finger in it. Whenever he'a with Namjoon and Hae Min, he always think of himself like a third wheeler, but they assured him every time and he appreciated it. He admired Namjoon and Hae Min's relationship. He also wanted someone to cuddle until they both fall asleep. He also wanted to wake up to the sound of someone making breakfast. He also wanted to yell "Honey, I'm home." for once.

He never had a girlfriend, not that he's not into girls. He just never really has a strong connection with someone yet. His love life is not really something he would brag about. Because to be honest, it's boring. He can't remember the last time he ever hold a girl's hand. He not the kind that's easy to fall for someone and definitely not the kind that people would stay for when they know what he can do. He not really looking for a relationship right now. He wants to focus on his job.

Oh who is he kidding?

He's fucking lonely.