Inside the mind of a randm teenage girl

Thoughts at two o'clock in the morning

Hello my dear reader,

I've been thinking about a lot of things recently. Its Thanksgiving break and I just cant stop thinking about school. How would people react to someone they were once close with that they are no longer close to anymore. Or how hard it is to make friends. How do you express yourself so...instantaneously that you leave someone shell shocked.

I will tell you something about me. I'm not normal yet at the same time I am. I can talk with some people easily but others not so much. I have one really close best friend but even she is slipping through my fingers. Im slowly losing all my friends to high school and it sucks. And you want to know something about high school?

I have met the most amazing people there and you start being molded into your own person getting ready for the world.

I haven't had much molding though. Whenever I sit in class and just sit there looking around at the people around me...I've just never felt more alone in my life. I feel like an alien who can't fit in with anyone, or that robot that never made it and was shut down.

Hell is it even possible for a lot of people to know your name and they ask you for advise on the most randomest things and then once you have they leave you there like a used paper bag that got torn along the way or a book you just don't read anymore because it annoys you to death about how predictable the dang thing is, but you keep coming back to it because it always offers you a little more advice on a certain situation.

I live my life as much as i can but its not enough when you have a hard time and everything seems to be crashing down around you and having to sacrifice your own happiness for everyone else around you, but you know in the end it'll kill you and you've accepted it because maybe you never got to play a cello but you could play a cello piece and that was the closest you ever got but you loved every second of it.

Have you ever felt like your screaming at a group of people to help you but they all ignore you and turn away and continue on with their lives?

You can dance anywhere even if only in your heart- Unknown 

Until next time my lovely reader...