Inside the mind of a randm teenage girl

Instruments

Dear reader,

I have been thinking a lot about the instruments I play and when i got them. I love music and the first memory I have is with music. It's like I just woke up in that moment and started living. My mind let me take control of my body and let me live. I was off of auto-pilot.

That moment I woke up I was in my moms car listening to country music. Everything was just amazing. I was nine. I started listening to different kinds of music and just enjoyed it. Middle school came and the first instrument I learned to play was a Clarinet. I remember when my music teacher called me in asked me how i felt about playing the clarinet and i said "I wouldn't mind playing the clarinet" he responded with or you could switch blocks to play flute. I looked at him and thought about it. I smiled and said I think Ill take the clarinet.

I played clarinet for two years but i didnt really like playing it. Then i got asked to play Bass Clarinet on my last year in middle school. I accepted because maybe it would be different. It was different. I loved the deep notes you could play on it but it didn't feel right. That year I also got the chance to learn to play guitar.

I loved the feeling of the strings under my finger tips. It sent a feeling from my finger tips to the tips of my toes. Eventually i just got bored with the music and the instrument.

It didn't feel like home to me. When my mom got me an electric guitar for Christmas i pretended to be happy just for her. She go on and on about how The music flowed in my blood and i come from a long line of musicians and a whole other stuff.

I am now a freshman in high school and the only music that seems to excite me anymore is a cello piece my friend Dante gave me. That small piece of music just feels like a piece of my heart and when i play it...

Its like I'm not playing my bass clarinet but a cello. And in that moment i feel more a live than I've ever felt.

I think music in itself is healing. It's all explosive expression of humanity. It's something we are all touched by. No matter what culture we're from, everyone loves music- Billy Joel

Until next time my lovely reader...