Dear someone

1 (day)

Dear someone
The only way I can describe my day is by using the word "plain". Nothing really special happened.

I woke up at maybe 10am feeling like my body wanted to kill me, it felt like I couldn't get out of bed, I had this massive headache, I still do, and my leg decided that nope it's not gonna work today, like seriously have you ever felt that feeling when your leg out of nowhere stops being able to support your weight, no joke it sucks. I was really worried cuz I had to go to school and pic up my books, but then my friend( let's call her cat cuz she reminds me so much of a house cat 😂😂) saved my ass by going to my school and picking up my books for me before the school closed and the virtual classes began ( you know cuz corona ) and then we talked about the stupidest things, and sending each other stupid pictures and just taking a moment to be ourselves without the worry of having to put up any masks and pretending to have our shit together, it was nice.

After I regained sensation of my legs back I started to here music from my little brothers room ( he's 3 years old) so I went to see what's going on, and you can imagine the surprise I felt when I saw him butt naked, dancing and bouncing on his bed 😂😂. Now any sane person would tell him to stop and help him with his clothes, I'm not a sane person, so I entered the room and started dancing with him. It was something so out of character for me to do, cuz I've never in joyed being around kids but he was just so happy and bubbly that I couldn't help myself, so I joined in on the fun and started dancing and jumping and acting silly to make him laugh more.

After we finished ( more like after I tired out ) I went to our family kitchen to make me some breakfast, I made some egg sandwiches with a cup of coffee, and then just lazied around the house. ( this all happened from the hour 10am till 2pm)

At 3pm I started feeling sleepy so I went to my room to "sleep".... oh who the hell am I kidding I just wanted to read in peace, and I'm so thankful that I did that cuz around 4pm my step mom came back home and brought her family along to visit, (a little back story, my mom and dad divorce when I was 10 or 11 I don't really remember and as you can expect things aren't going amazing but I'll manage, I always do ), now don't get me wrong I like her and her family but it doesn't seem right for me to sit with them and for me to be chummy with them, you know, so to waste time I did what I usually do when I have any free time, I started reading.

and as I was reading a thought struck me, like literally I had to stop and digest the thought. I really REALLY want an anonymous friend, someone I can talk to and someone that can talk to me without the awkwardness of knowing each other, someone that will understand when I say I feel really bad for no reason or when I say that I'm really happy for no reason and know that whoever that person is he/she won't judge me, but know that I'm actually voicing my thoughts out I think it's a really stupid idea cuz with my personality I'll probably bore the heaven out of that person, and they'll leave, like most people I let in, we will most likely talk foooooor... 3 months max and then one of us will get bored of the other and we'll stop talking. But well I can always dream can't I 😂😂.

Anyway it about 5:30pm right now and it's been a pretty plain good day.