Touching The Heart Of Ace (SAMPLE)

Chapter 27

What the hell was I doing?

I squeezed my eyes shut. I was not supposed to be okay with this. This was wrong!

I... I...

I had to get out of here, fast. What the hell was I thinking? I was in no way okay with this. I was not! Then what the hell was last night? What were we doing?

I wiped off my tears.

Robbie was not mine!

Get it in your head, Ace. He was starting a family and I was wrecking it. I wanted to hate the situation I was in.

I was in here trapped, I hated being here waiting for him, I did not miss him; I did not want him. I did not lose my control; I did not like him being in me.

The power went off unexpectedly last night. The wind was slamming our windows and Robbie loved ruckus, he thrived in chaos. More the chaos, more in control he was. The windows should be closed; Robbie was not letting me.

"I am here."

Of course he was. It was dark, but not dark enough not to know him standing behind me. "Did you love my gift?" His fingers playing with the chain, purposefully brushing them against my skin.

I pushed his hand away. "Robbie."

We needed to light candles, or find some backup power.

"Ace." His lips on my nape. "You are beautiful; do you know that?" I licked my lips, it was dark, no one would see that, not even Robbie.

"You have a very beautiful heart. I have never met someone who is as beautiful as you. You! Sweet Bloody Jesus. You are perfect."

No one would know, it was dark. I could feel, I did not have to control my emotions. No one would see.

He was warm and hard. Hard for me. He made my blood boil with need.

Everything poured out of me. I was wild and Robbie, he destroyed me in the most delicious way.

Every pain he made to my body I gave it back tenfold.

His lips were bruised, his back had nail scratches and some were angry red with dried blood around. His shoulders bared my marks, but his left cheek, I had to plaster it. I had sharp nails and I clawed on him in pleasure.

No one had to know, it was dark. Only I knew, why this was different.

"This is how I want to spend rest of my life." It was early in the morning, the power was still out, he was tired and satisfied with his head on my stomach.

What had I done?

This was not how I wanted to spend rest of my life. Hiding from the reality, eating the forbidden fruit and burning myself in the fire of my personal hell.

I was already getting addicted to the taste. I had to stop before this was too late. Too late for me to save myself.

Robbie forgot his wet clothes in the shower. And that was my sign. His t-shirt was a bit too large on me but the sweatpants had the string. It was good he was late this morning, or he would have noticed and I could not escape naked.

I was ready, all I needed was Robbie to come back. The shower was on, I was standing close to the wall, breathing slowly and carefully.

Waiting and waiting. This was no time to lose patience.

I am so sorry, Big Baby. I knew he would be sad, angry but I had to.

You have a child, Robbie and that is not something I can overlook.