IDENTITY-LESS

Chapter 5

I didn't know how else to continue after Samuel kept pushing me, asking me what it felt like to have that sort of presence within me. After his little ''reassurance'' session and after him asking me more simpler things, I saw behind his questioning that he was in fact digging further and further. I had asked him to please leave.

''didn't want another session today?'' the male nurse asked, Kane being his name. How ironic.

''I don't need to be pushed and prodded around more than what I am here'' I said through gritted teeth.

''I know that seems like a bad place but it is not as bad as some of the other places'' he said as he walked towards me

I became alert and scooted to the other side of the bed

''Sorry'' he said and held his hands up in submission '' I don't mean to scare you''

My heart was racing and my mind starting questioning its own sanity. I knew that he is not him, I knew that he was real but the fear just overcame my body. My teeth started to clang together as my bones felt like they solidified.

''So'' he smirked as he placed his hands behind his back ''this is really the man you like, don't you?''

Oh God. Ice replaced the blood in my veins. No no no no.

''Yes my sweet yes'' he said as he rested his arms on either side of me, his face close to mine ''you cannot escape me Adria because no matter where you run I will be there, no matter how loud you scream for help I will suffocate your voice'' he covered my nose and mouth ''and when you think you will be drawing your last breath'' I started to panic as I couldn't taste the air anymore ''I will give you your life as I will be one whom drags you down with me''

I looked into his eyes, into the dark abyss and I saw no remorse, no feeling and he was as serious as the night. Tears left my eyes without my consent and he wiped then with his free hand

''shhhh little one'' he tried to coo but I couldn't control the shakes ''it wasn't all that bad was it?''

I felt the calmness of unconsciousness wrap its arms around me, calling me into its place of calm and before I could slip away, he whispered into my ear ''I am coming back for you little one''

Once again, I was floating and it felt good. It felt free. I quite liked this feeling of being in this state. I had no care in the world because really, what was there to be cared for? My family shunned me and I had no friends. I lost it all because of one demonic entity.

My body felt stiff and my mind felt foggy. I hated this part about coming back. A crude and ruthless scent hit my nose and my eyes flew open, I was now awake. I was alert to everything around me.

''Relax Adria'' another nurse told me with a polite smile ''you will be alright''

I felt a wave of relaxation dance over me, whatever this was I wanted more of it. I couldn't really move much but I could twitch every now and then and that was okay with me. My body was on constant high alert and I couldn't tell the difference anymore, he would just pop up out of nowhere. I was always confused but right now, no matter where I was at least he wasn't there and the ghosts weren't either and that I can live with.

I couldn't help but look over at the crystal I had gotten and I was shocked at what I saw, a huge crack down the centre of the stone, one small push and it would fall apart. I don't know what to do anymore. I am so scared of the reality of the situation. Saying his name might not even give him power but it a question I will leave for Sam to answer. He might know better than I ever would or maybe he wants me to say his name to validate that he was a part of me, admit to myself that he is real. Tomorrow Sam would be coming back and I would probe him for answers.

''Adria come here my little one'' my mother called with her arms open towards me ''come here you little rascal''

I watched as my little legs carried me over to her and she swooped me up and twirled me around a little before settling me on her hip

''Bunnies mommy'' I mumbled out as I gripped her fingers

My mother smiled such a soft smile and clicked her fingers and little white rabbits wisped through the air, running around us and through the space between my mother and I.

One little bunny rested at my feet and I looked up back at my mother, she was looking straight at me

''How dare you practice that magic in our house?!'' she screamed at me

I fumbled with my own words, nothing wanted to come out

''You are a disgrace to this family and you are never welcomed here'' she spat with tears streaming down her face ''get out!''

I was flung around in total darkness and landed on a hard floor and looked around at paintings on a wall, ones I have never seen. I tried to stand but my legs didn't want to work. I looked around some more when my eyes landed on my dad

''Brandon, I didn't know what he was doing with her'' My dad had said to same man in a suite who sat opposite him in a chair

'' I am not interested in the finer details of how this happened I am more interested in how that demon possessed my niece'' the other man answered

My niece? My dad had a brother?

"I wish I knew but I am at a crossroads myself'' my dad said while running his hand down his face ''I wanted to save her but her mother banished her and that monster has started something that cannot be undone''

My father tried to save me? I don't understand

"There is nothing we can do to save her now Brandon we can only hope she can get free'' the so-called uncle replied while handing my father his drink

I was flung again by my mind and landed in the one place I hated, the one place that I dreaded, it was my practice room

I saw myself sitting on the floor and chanting with another woman. I remember her but her name eludes me. We were invoking the spirits of Earth to grant us power but then everything went quiet and I heard a faint whisper of another spell being done. I felt the sweat on my brow.

I wasn't flung anymore but I gently felt my eyelids open on their own and I was staring straight at the brown ceiling. I sighed and tried to move my arms and legs but as usual I was bound. Great. I felt like an emotionless robot that had just been rebooted.