"Even if you hurt me and leave me, my heart is still with you." - Y/n
"I'm so sorry, my baby. I'll always love you." - Park Chaeyoung
"I love you, don't leave me please." - Kim Jennie
🚬𝙈𝙮 𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙨𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙣 𝙢𝙮 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙘𝙖...
Ever heard of insecure? Jealousy? Or did you guys ever y'know... heartbroken? If I ask my teenage self, she would say 'No, never and I don't want or I'd never feel that'. How naive.
But ever since I met, loved, dated, and broke up with my first love, Park Chaeyoung. I developed all of those feelings.
Throughout the process of dating her, make me felt and learned so many different feelings. I never knew she gonna hurt me like that. I never knew that she was gonna love anyone else more than me while claiming that she loved me. I never knew that she was gonna accept my love and then just gonna throw it away. I never knew that she gonna cheated on me. I never knew that my first love was gonna hurt, break, destroy me, and make me develop a new character in myself.
So when I started dating Jennie Kim, I did not trust her. It was 50/50? Or maybe 40? I don't know. Maybe I don't wanna hurt myself so badly anymore. But I still wanna love someone. It's not like I don't love her, I love her. I won't stay with someone that I don't love.
I love Jennie Kim, so much that I feel like she's the one that I want to marry, y'know.
But insecurity gets me. Jealousy gets me so bad. My heart? If I can see it, I will choose not to see it. Who knows? How many scars are in there? Is it still bleeding? I don't know. Sometimes I choose not to feel anything at all. But I know, my heart knows, I love my girlfriend.
I love Jennie Kim to death.
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*ringing*
I look at my phone. It's Rosé. I let out a heavy sigh. Can she stop torturing me or herself? This is not healthy at all. It only hurt both of us or more like hurting her so badly.
Phone conversation
Y/n: Yeah? Rosé: Hey, are you busy? Y/n: Hm.. kinda Rosé: Hm okay.. actually let me get to the point, okay? Y/n: Go on Rosé: But first, c'mon Daddy.. stop being cold like that towards me, hm? Y/n: That's all you wanna say? And Rosie? *sigh* can you please stop? Stop calling me by that nickname. Rosé: No. That's not the point that I called you. The point is... I just wanna tell you to come over to my apartment tonight. Y/n: What?! Why would I go there? Oh cmon. Rosé: Well then.. should I just tell your Jennie a story? The thing that happened between us before this? Y/n: I.. *sigh*what time? Rosé: I will text you... and daddy? I won't stop calling you by that nickname. See you tonight.
