Pay Back ; C.D.

Payback 26

For the next 2 weeks I went to the hospital everyday to visit Matt nothing changed and I was starting to get worried

"See you tomorrow Kenzie" the assistant at the front said I waved her off and walked out the front door driving back to the house when I got there all the boys were already gone for Magcon and they had to explain what happened I hope the fans feel awful because its there fault he's in that bed lifeless right now and I will never forgive them for it

"You can't beat yourself up with this" Sydney said to me
"Oh trust me I'm not its their fault that he's like this and if it happens again they'll wish they never came to Magcon" I scoffed back

"We'll then let's get some breakfast in you and relax for once" I smiled and we all got in the car ad drove to a restaurant and ate breakfast

"Have a great day ladies" the waitress said as we walked out the door

"Great day my as-"
"Hey!"
"As--pirin I was gonna say aspirin" I state
"Hmm" just then my phone vibrates reminding me of the day Matt got injured

"Hello?"
"Hey we just finished the meet & greet wanna meet up with us and we can go visit Matt for a bit" Crawford said through the phone

"Sure we will meet you there" I hung up the phone

"We're meeting up with the guys at the hospital to see Matt" we left and went to the hospital when we got there all the guys were already in the room when we walked in they were talking to him like nothing happened, like he wasn't lifeless on a hospital bed, but I kinda liked it, they were treating him like everything was okay even though it isn't

(1 month later)

It's been a month since Matt's incident nothing's changed and now the doctors were telling us it was time but I couldn't let it happen Matt can't be...

(2 months later)

Still no change Matt's still lifeless the doctors are pretty much begging me to let him go but I won't do it I still believe there's a chance

(3 months later)
I'm starting to loose faith in Matt myself but I would never dare show it I'm the only person that still has a little hope for him he needs me

(4 months later)
I can't bare myself to even visit him anymore every time I see his pale cold body I break down in tears I can't handle it anymore

(5 months later)
I visited Matt today still nothing he hasn't moved his Heath is still the same it's definitely not a concussion the doctors said he's in a coma and might not wake up

(6 months later)
Today's the day, I'm letting Matt go its been 6 months and nothings changed if only I was there the day it all happened it wouldn't of happened but I wasn't and now he's gone we'll unless within an hour he wakes up from his 6 month coma and shocks everyone

(Current month)

"It's okay Matt you can let go I know you can hear me and I know you've been fighting all this time but its okay you can let go I understand I love you so much and I thank you for everything that you have done for me and don't worry about me ill be okay I have everyone else here by my side" I stuttered every word and cried as Chris took me out of the room we all left the hospital and went back to the house

The next morning

I sat outside on a hill grasping the jar in my hands quietly crying I stuck my small quivering hand in the jar and pulled out a piece of paper

26: stubborn as you are you always go along with people decisions

I wipe my tears and smile picking out another paper for Matt

18: your smile lights up the world
I smiled at that and looked down into my lap I closed the jar and got up brushing off my black dress

"Kenz?"
"I'm out here"
"It's time to go"
"I'll be down in a minute"

"We'll Matt just because your not here anymore doesn't mean we still can't do the jar ill pick 2 everyday one for me one for you" I left and got in the car that drove us to the graveyard

"Matt was a loving boy so sweet and always looking out for others he was a great friend, a wonderful boyfriend, and an amazing son, Matt lived his life in the now he was always on his toes ready to try something new he loved all his friends, family, and fans and he couldn't ask for a better life then this Matt will be missed by many so may we have a moment of silence for him" I say as everyone stays silent when the minute passes others talk and put roses and other flowers on his grave they put the stone on the tomb which reads

Matthew Espinosa
July 7th 1997 - November 29th 2014
Will be missed by many may he live in peace and happiness

His stone was small with a carved out figure of a cat it was grey and beautiful I put down a rose and a piece of paper but not from the jar one I personally wrote
"Funny,caring,sweet,adorable, to many things that you are to put on a piece of paper we all love you so much not just for your witty ways or cat loving personality but for who you are xoxo Kenzie"

After the funeral we left and went back to the house there wasn't Magcon because everyone was grieving except me I grieved for 6 months knowing this day would happen I'm living in the now like Matt would I went upstairs and started packing my stuff I came back downstairs with all my bags everyone looked at me confused

"I'm leaving Magcon" I announced
"Wh-what!?" Everyone spitted out
"I can't handle those fans there out of control and if you can't see it then go ahead continue doing Magcon but I'm out"
"Where are you going to go?" Cam said
"With Chris and Crawford back home"
"Are you sure your not over thinking this your heads pretty messed up right now" Taylor said
"Positive" I said taking my stuff to the door

"I'm ready to go now" everyone looked at each other they knew they couldn't stop me so they went along with it

"I-I don't know what to say" cam stuttered
"Don't say anything just let me go" I say back he comes over and hugs me
"I'm so sorry" he said
"It's okay I don't want to pull you away the fans are counting on you and I can't be around they hate me and quit frankly I hate them" I kinda laughed
"You'll visit right?"
"I don't know" I said as Crawford and Chris came down stairs with there stuff they put everything in the car we all had a group hug and then we left

"Are you sure about this" Crawford said looking at me

"I'm never sure about anything anymore" I said to him he squeezed my hand and smiled I turned and looked out the window as we drove back to my city

When we arrived at the Collins house there mom was more then gladly to take me in everyone was so nice there sisters were the best and there parents made the best home cooked meals

About a couple months later I moved out to NYC and found a beautiful apartment Chris and Crawford moved with me and started there career on vine and I went to collage to get a degree everything worked out I went to Matt's grave yard every holiday and every birthday I took a paper out of the jar and placed it on his graveyard but kept a minimal amount of them for a keep sake my life was normal again I didn't talk to any of the boys because I thought if I did it would bring back memories so I laid low and lived my life as a YouTuber along with Chris and Crawford....

A/N: HEEELLLOOO
Guuuuuys this is the second to last chapter I'm ending it!!!!

Ahahahsiss I know it's come so far and I know this is a lot to take in but it's how I wanted to end it last chapter will be up soon I'm still figuring out how to end it comment below any ideas plzzzz

Until next chappy :)