Rêverie

3

I want her and him and him and her.
Not for love, not for long
even though it seems so wrong
I need to stop this sense of blur.

I have dreams and longings and longings and dreams,
give me affection, give me your all
always the highest, the moment I fall.
Deep down I know it's never what it seems.

I want to be the one, the only, the priority,
feels like heaven, burns like hell
an addiction being fed so well.
I want them to show me authority.

It's no crush, no love, not relationship-based.
You give me what I never had,
a feeling of safety going to bed.
But one, two weeks later - you've been replaced.

Lost track of everyone that's ever gone by,
thirty, fourty, thirtyfour.
My childhood's what I'm looking for,
but that's the one thing that I never find.

Lost one yesterday, fell for another one now,
always good, never enough, staying with them is always so tough,
already know they'll give me up somehow.

Can't stop, won't stop, head in the clouds.
LOVE ME, SEE ME, APPRECIATE ME!
I don't believe that you cannot see.
I'm either full of trust or broken by doubts.

An endless circle, it's always the same:
my inner child cries itself to sleep,
open wounds that are still stinging deep.
All of my life will be spent living in pain.