House of Cards || knj ✓

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They were going to leave for Korea in two days. I didn't want Namjoon to go without hearing me out. Ideas started to come and go, trying to get Namjoon to stay whenever I entered a room.

It wasn't until I saw Namjoon go in his studio. I quietly followed, glad that I chose to go bare footed today. Before this situation began, he would leave his door open, now he would close it and I had to use this window of opportunity.

Keys were in the door handle, meaning he was going to leave soon. Out of desperation, I turned the key and threw it on the floor. I entered the room and closed the door. Namjoon swiveled his chair, eyes wide then narrowed when he saw me.

"What do you want Y/n?" Namjoon asked.

Every time we talked, I would either face a angry Namjoon or an emotionless one. It hurts my heart seeing that he was slowly burying himself because of his assumptions.

Holding my head high, with a clear voice, "We need to settle this now."

He raised an eyebrow, "Just what do we need to settle? Last time I checked, you and I have no business. Oh look at the time, I have to go."

I step aside from the door, "I've made sure that neither of us can leave the room. You can try all you want but you're not leaving until you hear the whole truth."

Namjoon simply looked at me like I was crazy. Honestly...I felt like it. This situation is hurting us more than we like to admit.

"I want to see them Namjoon."

Namjoon narrowed his eyes, "See what exactly Y/n? You have to be more specific."

"The proof that supposedly demonstrates my infidelity. At the restaurant, you said that Ryan and I were hypocrites. What other conclusion could there be than that?"

He went towards his computer, and grabbed an envelope marked with a purple X. He motioned me to come and get it. Four steps forward and I was there by his side. We haven't been this close without arguing or the obvious disdain.

I opened the envelope and grabbed the contents. It was a series of photos, starting from Ryan and I going in the hotel and us leaving the hotel.

I scoffed, "Is this what you call proof of an affair? The only thing that this shows is that we were in a hotel, nothing more nothing less."

He just shook his head, "Y/n, I don't have time for your lies..."

"YOU WILL LISTEN TO ME ONCE AND FOR ALL KIM NAMJOON!" It felt good to yell at Namjoon and express words that I wanted to say for so long.

Namjoon simply sat down on his chair and looked surprised. I don't blame him, the last time I yelled at him was because he broke my grandmother's crystal vase. She had given it to us when we decided to live together. At the end of the day, we blamed it on the moving service.

I ran my fingers through my hair, ready to speak when Namjoon spoke.

"My behavior hasn't been the best these past months..."

I couldn't stop the laughter for escaping, "What made you realize that Namjoon?"

"I've seen you cry, even when you quickly wipe them away. Just now I made you yell and yeah..." He raked his fingers through his hair.

I stepped away from the door, heading towards the small couch. I sat down and observed Namjoon. Without thinking twice, "Ryan is— was my best friend's boyfriend..."

When he heard my voice, he immediately looked up. That's when I told him everything concerning Ryan and Terry. Why I didn't tell him anything and what this year signifies. Namjoon's face expressed his sorrow and guilt over this whole situation.

"I'm sorry for you loss Y/n. If I would have known, this would have never happened."

A small smile, "I know Joon...I know. Who would have thought that this would happen hmm?"

"I think honesty deserves honesty so I'll tell you why I went crazy with this."

He took a deep breath and began.  "She was first my friend but later she became my girlfriend. She was like a butterfly, fluttering from place to place, spreading happiness everywhere she went. You know that I'm a bit awkward so our personality would often make us want different things," here he stopped and gave me an apologetic look.

"This led to arguments, her leaving me to go out. In the end, she finally left me for a guy she just met and it killed me. Here I was giving her the most and she left because I couldn't adjust to her lifestyle. Later on, I found out that she had known the guy for some time and was actually with him before she broke it off with me."

He embraced me and I inhaled his scent. I closed my eyes and tightly hugged him back. "I missed you so much Namjoon. I'm sorry for not telling you sooner..."

That's when I started to cry, overwhelmed by all these emotions and confessions. I was happy that this was all sorted out, however, I was hurt because he didn't trust me enough.

"I think that we need to give each other space. Space to reflect on yourself, myself and us. You're leaving soon and the timing couldn't me more perfect."

He nodded his agreement, agreeing that this was going to be good for us. I looked up at his face and saw tears running down his face. I reached up and wiped them. Before I could react, Namjoon leaned down and kissed me. I gave in to the kiss to show him I still felt something for him and that he shouldn't forget it.

After a few seconds, we pulled apart to catch our breath. I knew that he was smiling but we agreed to something. I stepped away, "I think you should call one of the guys to come and open the door. I locked it from the outside earlier."

All Namjoon did was laugh and went to get his phone. My heart swelled of hope, Maybe there will be a new beginning for us after all.

[so i miscalculated...oops. there will be one last chapter for this and i really wasn't planning this. anyways, tell me what you thought about this chapter and until next time (*'꒳'*) ]