i reallly dislike social media, i dont like it at all, sorry social media its nothing personal but i just think a lot of my anger came from social media, relying on internet personalities to validate my internet personality>>make fake me feel real, and then what if i fall in love with that person, i wouldn't like them to know i am not even real i am real u can see me but still
i like social media because people i like use it and i see more of them, but what if they arent even them. people who broadcast every second of their lives annoy me but i like to watch and see how easy they make life seem (bars)
i recently got friend project hoping itd be a little diferent, ive already had a rlly bad experience that wasnt that serious but it hurt my feelingsand i think thats my fault, i forgot to tell myself people joke around sometimes and arent always serious. i dont know how to
friend project is like myspace, it was created after it died, its myspace 1.0 basically. its an old website so i dont expect the kinds of people tha make me upset to be on it. its a lot of emo and scene kids and i think thats really lovely, everyone i have came across really likes mcr so if youre reading this n u like mcr u should get it and make friends.\
what i like is that u can customize ur profieljust like myspace, it involves coding tho but u can use websites to mke a code for u and then with the code they give u u can add and remove things from there if u wanna.. anyways i am still customixing mine until i like it but its ok for now.
i havent used fp befire so i dont know if its ok. like i can use tumblr, its not as annoyinh as instagram, maybe i just havent had as bad experiences, but i have had the WORSE experiences on wattpad and im still here?? well i think about deleting my account a lot but im also proud of someee of the things i have done so i dont think i would.
i wish i could get rid of my anxiety and fear of people, maybe i would make friends in real life. well i was almost there and then i did something dumb; not only do i not know when people are joking, i dont kno when people dont kow IM joking. or maybe i dont sound like im joking. i dont know.
i need a lot more time to build myself up again, i eel scattered, there r several different mes all in my head, some arent even me they are just people in my head and it is not very cool i dont know who i am.
sometimes i feel like i should give in to a title or claim to be apart of a subculture, but ive only ever been emo and that is something im happy living in the past. i dont see myself in any subculture. i am just me. i just need to learn who the fuck that is
