Song Fics

Wildest Dreams - Taylor Swift

He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad but he does it so well
I can see the end as it begins

The first time I saw Brent Paraiso, I knew that he would break my heart. He was the typical student athlete, you'll notice him in an instant. He's tall,He's handsome, the chinito type, He's rich, wearing the latest release of a well known sneaker brand, white shirt and shorts, gold chain around his neck and an ear piercing, not the typical type of man i'd go for, but something about him caught my attention. I wasn't sure what it was and it scared me.

"hey!" he called out, and as cheesy at it sounds, I fell in love at first sight. Ricci Rivero calling his name, but he stood in front of me, blocking the sun, not minding Rivero as he looked into my eyes.

"you dropped this kanina." he said, giving me my ballpen, which honestly didn't even matter as it was just a cheap one I found at home.

"thank you" I replied, trying my best not to shake as I reached out for it. He smiled, and I can feel my walls being broken down.

"Brent." he said, making me look up and stare into his eyes, he chuckled extending his hand.

"My name is Brent, Brent Paraiso." of course I knew his name, he is the best friend of Ricci Rivero, the star player, I nodded.

"Clara, Clara Mendoza" I replied, shaking his hand, he grinned.

"Nice to meet you Clara." he smiled at me, not letting go of my hand, I giggled. His hand were soft, and that was surprising given the fact that he is a basketball player.

"TANGINA PARAISO, ANG TAGAL MO" I heard him sigh, and roll his eyes. Raising his middle finger at Ricci, I smiled.

"Tawag ka na ni Ricci." I said, looking at him, he nodded sighing again.

"I'll see you around? Clara?" he asked, and I nodded. I watched as he walked towards Ricci, shouting curse words and laughing, while Ricci messed with his cap.

I stared at the ballpen in my hand, Brent Paraiso just stole my heart and I let him.

You see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burning it down

"I love you" he said as he hugged me tight, kissing the top of my head, swaying like there was music in my room.

I closed my eyes, hugging him tight as I let him dance, as I savor this moment. This moment of peace, our peace.

"I love you so much Clara, I just don't want you to get hurt." he reminded me, I nodded again, not wanting to say anything.

Second year into the relationship but no one knew about the two of us, not his family, not his friends, just Ricci.

"I know, I love you." I replied, I felt him smile as he calmed down, the beat of his heart matching mine, and I was content.

We were in my room, hugging each other, hiding from the judging eyes of people who wanted Brent for themselves, he was hiding me from everyone.

"he just doesn't want us to be like Ricci and Eunice." I reminded myself as I stared at his sleeping form.

I thought heaven can't help me now.
Nothing lasts forever, but this is gonna take me down

"let's go to the beach after my game." he said, I looked at him, wondering why he suddenly asked me to go the beach

"why bigla?" I asked, he smiled not taking his eyes off the road.

"wala lang, I miss you." I bit my lip, after he transferred to UST, we rarely see each other, so I guess we really need the time to ourselves.

"okay, after the game, i'll drive." I said, smiling widely.

"I love you." I said, holding his other hand, kissing it lightly. Brent smiled, his eyes getting smaller and he bit his lip.

"kinikilig" I teased, he nodded laughing, I kissed his hand again, this time he smiled and I can see the tiredness in his eyes.

I hoped that it was because of driving and training, not about our relationship. But I can only hope, because to be honest, I really didn't know what's going through his head anymore.

And that's scares me.

Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just pretend

"hindi ka ba masaya?" I asked him, watching him drive and not say anything.

It was our fourth year anniversary and his second year in UST, while I was left in La Salle. He nodded, faking a smile, as I try to understand that he just finished a game and he was tired.

"napagod lang." he replied, kissing my knuckles, I smiled.

But deep down I knew that something was wrong, dati, ipinapasok pa niya ang posibilidad na ipakilala na niya ako sa mga magulang niya, but lately, we don't talk about it and even if my parents asked, he would smile and say "soon po" but soon was uncertain and I can feel him drifting away from me. Everyday, I feel like a piece of him is already moving on from our relationship.

"You look so pretty today, you look perfect, My Clara." he whispered, hugging me from behind as we stared at the sun setting, the waves were calm.

I faced him, taking in the way he looked today, beach shorts and polo, his hair messy, he was smiling but his eyes were tired.

"if you break up with me, please tell me that you'll never forget me." I said, smiling and looking down.

He grabbed my hand and hugged me tight.

"I would never forget about you." and that was enough assurance.

Assurance that he would never forget about me, but not break my heart.

"Sila na pala." I heard my classmate say, snapping me out of it, ngumiti ako, wiping the few tears that fell. Hoping that no one saw it, as I close my instagram.

"Ms. Mendoza, Saan ka pupunta?" our professor asked, ngumiti ako ng pilit, trying my best to contain the tears.

"Sir, masakit po dibdib ko, hindi po ako makahinga." and I prayed that my excuse would work because I am close to breaking down in front of my classmates.

"Go to the clinic." he said and I ran, I ran to the bathroom where I poured my heart out.

Four years with Brent Paraiso and no one knew about us, I didn't get to shout his name or wear his jersey, I didn't get to meet his family, I didn't get to show everyone that he was mine.

But she did.