Prejudicial Love Affair

Intern

Chapter I

Every corner of the hospital would give different kinds of shiver to any of us. It could be a shiver of indifference and fear because of the mortifying scenes especially when you choose to stay outside the emergency room. But to me it gives a different shiver, a sense of disappointment and a fang of bittersweet memories.

I sat outside the ER waiting for the doctor to see me. My eyes  was fixed to her every measured and gentle moves while she attended to a young girl, maybe on her early 20's. She was pale and fear was plastered all over her face. The doctor gave a reassuring smile. She turned away from the patient and saw me waiting outside. She took long strides towards me.

"Walk with me" She said while taking few steps ahead.

We walked to the hospital's east-wing hallway. I just followed her while my gaze fixed at her. She wore the doctor's coat with pride and with utmost respect. I always adore doctors, nurses, radiologic technologists, medical technologists and other allied health professionals working tirelessly day in and out.

"How long are you planning to stare at my coat?" She voiced out seriously.

"Well, i always adore you. You know that"

"Then catch up with me" teasing me to take steps until we were walking side by side.

"So what's with the patient you checked on earlier?" I asked.

She turned with a challenging look. "No, don't tell me. Let me guess" I said laughing half-halfheartedly.

"Go on" She replied with a smirk.

"She's pregnant!!" I voiced out hysterically.

"You could be one of my greatest resident" She put her arm around my shoulder and smiled so proudly. "But the court needs you more than I do" She added hoping to give out life to my black hole.

The court needs me. But why does my heart still aches when I see resident doctors or PGIs passing by to attend patients, checking on their charts and interact with them, making follow ups on their progress.

"I don't think I'd pass this sem" I said doubtfully. Coz honestly, all I ever wanted is to pass my exams and hopefully graduate with flying colors. "I wasn't born for this, I am tired feeling stuck with my own pit of black holes" I added hysterically and bitterly to every word. However, I'm not sure of my current predicament in law school. Many have wondered why I chose law school over medical school. I have undergrad that is absolutely far-off from becoming a renowned lawyer. I am ambitious and thus I never see success coming until someone say I did it.

"That's what you said on your freshmen, ... and still passed it" she was trying to be funny as always.

"It's different this time, Ate" I told her.

"Nope, nothing is different. It was just your nega thoughts you wanted to listen. Look I wasn't born for this either, I was called to be a doctor and I chose to be" She looks at me reassuringly.

"There are days it's tiring and dehumanizing when the family of the patient, whose life was lost in the death bed, call you unfitting wearing the doctor's coat. But what I realized, people will always say worst in you when they only see you as the best option to blame. You did your part, but you just lost. Whatever means you choose it's the life you touched that matters" she said  as we take our orders in the hospital canteen.

"two grilled tuna sandwich, one mocha Frappuccino and a glass of water please--" She ordered knowingly.

"Make it two, two mocha Frappuccino" I protested.

"No just one and a glass of water, no ice please. My patient is very stubborn" she looked at Esther grinning, who just shook her head and smiled at us.

"I haven't had any coffee or tea for months" I protested again.

"You have GERD, and that's my order as your doctor, Elle" She said as we sat across each other waiting for our order.

   

We started enjoying our breakfast and was making updates on each other since we haven't seen each other for almost two months. I took my final exam seriously that I locked up myself in my apartment for a month. I was really sure I wouldn't be able to intern at Liberty firm without placing myself part of the top ten on our major exam. Not long enough, Breeana's phone rang.

She wiped off her mouth with a clean tissue towel before excusing herself to answer the phone.

"Dr. Montagne, speaking." I heard her in distant. "Yes...That's fine I understand, so what do we have?" She looked at me at signaled me to wait for a while. "Okay..hmm, was the patient intubated upon transferring" She continued inquiring.

She came back to the table and mouthed 'sorry', then hurriedly ran down to attend a patient.

I walked back to my car and headed to the university after receiving a text message about the released of our grades. My heart beat was racing and accelerating so bad that I almost choked with my own air. This is a make or break to me, I mean to everyone who ever wanted to intern at Liberty Firm.

I parked my car in the high school department parking area of the university and decided to walk into our building.

I went directly to the VMR and saw a pile of aspirants lining up trying to get a glimpse of the result. I didn't bother pushing myself into the grounds so I waited outside the dean's office and decided to check on the result after each of them calm down.

I heard hysterical laughters and sighs, a mixture of victory and defeat. An hour has passed and I check on the list.

Damn it! Goddess of justice, I made the cut!! I virtual made a silly dance moves after learning I passed the major exam and will get to intern at Liberty Firm. What a change of mood!!

"Montagne made the cut" I heard Issa mouthed with disgust after knowing I made the cut and she didn't.

When she looked back, her eyes caught my existence and tried to make a fake smile before saying, "Congratulations, you made it!". Ugh! What a fake! I forced a smile and made my way back to the car.

While on the car, I opened facebook and was about to make a stupid post about "Show me some fake love, it's overflowing in your vein". Thankfully, a cute my day caught up my attention. It was a beautiful mountain peak view where the sun kissed the morning clouds. It was very dramatic and surreal. The next one was as good as the first. It was a perfect view to unwind. I was in awe that every photos I gave a heart on it.

A message popped up on my screen. It was from unknown number, I was about to ignore but I read a congratulations on the screen. I opened the message.

Congratulations! Heard that you made it to official list of Liberty Interns. So happy you made it. Miss you.

- Jek

Unexpected person. I haven't talk to him for months. So I just replied.

Thanks. Hope to learn more.

Just 3 seconds passed and he replied back saying.

I miss you so much.

I have no time for this shit, Jek. You just want something from me, whatever it is, I'm going to figure it out but not falling off my grounds.

Can someone tell me if I should continue or not? Please 🙏