How to be Happy

Prologue

"God you're such a prick Alice. You can't do anything right. I wish you were never born."

"Please I'm sorry Ray please I'll do the dishes right now."

"No whatever just go to your room you're grounded no dinner tonight or tomorrow and maybe when you're done being a little bitch I'll let you eat dinner with us."

The memories of last night fight flooded into my mind as I walked down the bustling hallway to meet up with Jessica and Cerin. I stood on my tiptoes wobbling slightly trying to find Cerin's tall frame.

"Aye fat ass," I heard Jessica's high pitched voice coming from across the hallway. I've never had the guts to tell her how much those little comments made me hate myself but I guess I can deal with it, I mean after all she is one of my only friends.

"Oh hey," I went to hug Cerin but immediately drew back in disgust when he grabbed my waist. My ribs still ached from last weekend.

"Now listen here you stuck up bitch if you don't get your game face on I will personally break your fucking arm and I'm not going to be as nice as I was last time. You do remember last time don't you?" His grotesque smile gave me chills and I couldn't help but remember last weekend. I rubbed my side knowingly, it had hurt so much.

"Ewwww PDA," Jessica squealed and hit my arm way harder than necessary. I lurched back a little holding onto Cerin un willingly. " Wow you really have gained some weight, I almost knocked you back on your fat ass," She snickered as she poked my stomach.

"Seriously babe you need to lose some weight, youre starting to get a little chubby," The bell rang and we walked towards the cafeteria. I stayed silent in the lunch line as I watch my best friend flirt with my boyfriend. I grabbed a salad and I water I knew I wouldn't eat. I mean I haven't eaten in five days why break the fast now? I sit silently and move the lettuce around in my plate and I thought about next period, which is math for me. I hate that class the teacher always calls me up to do a problem even though I never raise my hand.

"Is uh anyone sitting here?" I look up at a boy with an all to familiar face.

"Uhh Rome." I look down at the untouched salad forcefully like staring at the salad will make him go away.

"Oh sorry I didn't realize it was you ummm I'll go sorry." I looked up at him pleading him to leave before Cerin noticed.

" Hey if it isn't Rome. My good ol'pal how are you." Cerin had an evil smile on his lips, the same one he had the other night. "Here sit down. Alice doesn't need this seat." He pushed me out of the chair and onto the floor. It hurt really bad and the dizzy feeling had come back. I felt the sting of tears rise in my eyes but I held them back, no one would see me break.

"What was that? Are you trying to hurt her? Like seriously I'll leave just please don't hurt her." Rome looked down with sad eyes and helped me up. I know we aren't supposed to be friends anymore but I can't help but want to give him a hug. I keep my cool and knock away his hand and get back into my seat.

"If you ever come near Alice or me again I will personally end you. Remember that little Romeo." Rome walked away with out another word. He left his food next to mine and really I think he was trying to tell me to eat again. I don't care though I want to be thin and I'll use any means necessary to get there.

The bell rang shortly after the little confrontation. As usual Cerin walked me to math class, which was about a classroom down from his class. He bent down to kiss me and I pulled back a little out disgust but remembering his promise from earlier I continue forward with the unfortunate kiss. His bro David walked around the corner.

"Get some CC." He yelled our way and Cerin slapped my butt, which caused a blush to rise in my cheeks. I was very uncomfortable with so many people seeing that.

"You know I will David." He winked at his bro and then put one arm over his shoulder. "I got a nice slut you know." He said looking me up and down.

"I don't know bro I barley see any skin." They looked at each other then came towards me.

"You're right David. Alice hand me your jacket." He pointed to the baggy Spider man jacket I wore everyday. He always said I shouldn't wear it because it makes me look like a dike but I hate showing off my figure. I took it off and handed it to him. Underneath I was wearing a tight lime green shirt with sparkles that spelled out faith. I crossed my arms around my stomach afraid of my fat being exposed.

"Now that's more like it. See you later skank." He turned to me and pulled my shirt down showing even more cleavage, which I was not happy with. I walked into Mrs. Harper's class and take my regular seat in the very back of the classroom. As I sat down the all too familiar dizzy feeling returned. I put my head in the folds of my arm to maybe make it go away.

"Okay sun shines time for the warm up. Who would like to volunteer for doing question one on the board?" There was complete silence in the room. No one wanted to do anything for her; everyone hated her. " Ahh Mrs. Alice who seems to think that this is nap time. Yes come up here and do number one on the board for us." I stood up and gripped the edge of my desk for support. The whole world seemed to slow down and this loud ringing began in my head. I could see Mrs. Harper's mouth moving but her speech came out muffled.

"I don't feel well." I tried to say but I couldn't hear my own voice. My vision started to blur and I felt this over whelming urge to just lie down. I felt a huge knot form in my stomach. Everything went black all I felt was my head hit the floor.