Beyond us (EDITING)

5. Faith

Haven't there been times when we lie on our beds at night and wonder who to trust? What to believe on? Often this world feels like a big scam. Every other person we meet, we feel is hiding something. How to trust them? There are times when we feel that our faith is fading away. We do not know what do we totally believe in. I remember a time, it was years ago I started seeing this guy. He was my first date ever. Eventually, I fell in love with him. It was the most wonderful feeling I could have ever experienced. We went out for a year and it was perfect. Our relationship was beautiful. 1 year later things started seeming quite off. I remember it was summer and I went on a vacation with my family. I tried to communicate with him all the while I was on trip. He wouldn't take my calls or text me back. As I came back from the vacation, I contacted his family and they told me that he killed himself. It was a suicide, he was no more. I was devastated. I wondered how could he do this to himself, to me, to his parents , to everybody! Ever since I started my journey without him. A journey of grief with assortment of rage, frustration, hopelessness. 

What do we do when our faith in the world, in people, is being tested this way?  What do we do when we preach people to trust the process but ourselves fall out of it? What do we do when we start doubting each and every thing in the world? Even our core existence?   

I strongly believe that every thing or every feeling is a consequence. Now, one needs to believe in things that actually happen. The things that are tried and tested. If you are in a situation and you believe that it is going to get better and you are going to come out of it. You will. Your belief will sustain. Why? because you believed in something real. It is said that our mind is so powerful that it actually attracts things we believe in. Positivity attracts positivity. It is not that if we only believe that good things will happen to us we won't have our bad share of experience but in order to have a stable mental health and to get out of bad situations. Faith is the key. As long as one believes that one is going to get out of it. The miracle of faith works and you see how it attracts what you desire.  I was stuck with negative feelings until i believed that they were my fate, I resurrected myself out of it once I changed my feelings and started believing that I deserve to feel better.  That is how belief works for us.