perfect idol. || j.hs.

vii

exactly four days passed since hoseok went on his 'no eat' diet. he knew exactly how he felt about the procces and himself in general: he hated every single little detail about it.

he passed out at practice yesterday, and he was so so mad at himself for it. he could pass out, but he couldn't lose weight. what a failure; he thought.

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they were practicing their choreos again, this was only the second dance, but hoseok could barely move anymore. he barely got out of bed that morning, he had to hold every wall and every chair so he wouldn't collapse.

"hoseok, can you hear me? hoseok?!" namjoon rushed to his brother as he saw he wasn't moving to the beat. he wasn't moving at all actually, his back was arched and he was sulking down, until he just fell. jimin let out a scream as he got so scared, seeing the love of his life lose consciousness for the second time wasn't pleasant.

"i'll bring an ice pack. yoongi, come grab a towel for his forehead. tae, get the amoniac and jeongguk, you get some light snack for him. you two stay here and watch him." seokjin pointed to namjoon and jimin, as he quickly got out, the other's following him.

jimin started crying and wiped the bangs away from hoseok's face. he quickly put his lips onto his lover's one's, and started giving him cpr, until he felt hoseok grab the back of his neck and start to... kiss him.

as you can imagine, namjoon didn't really know how to react, as he didn't really procces what was going on either. he thought jimin was giving hoseok cpr, and hoseok woke up... right?

jmin pulled away, and hoseok just... layed down and smiled at his partener. he was barely breathing, because he haden't consumed anything in 4 days. namjoon asked him a few questions, but he could barely open his mouth.

the rest of the guys came into the practice room and instantly did what they had to do. seokjin put the ice pack in the towel yoongi got, and put it on hoseok's forehead. taehyung tried making his hyung stand up on his ass, but had to hold his back constantly so he woulnd't fall back. he brung the amoniac infused cotton ball next to his nose, and insructed the dark haired boy to take deep breathes thru his nose. hoseok did so, but quickly turned his head away because he couldn't bear the strong scent. it did wake him up, you couldn't deny that.

"drink some water, hyung. i brought you some cut up kimbap so you could snack on. you haven't eaten in a while." the youngest told him as he handed him a water bottle and a pack of kimbap, as promised.

hoseok's eyes widened and fear was written all over his face. he couldn't eat. there must be more then 500 calories in that box. but he could barely stand up aswell. and he knew that his members would force him to eat, and there were certainly no excuses as to why he would refuse to eat. "i'll just puke it out after." he said to himself and calmed down a bit. he really didn't want to eat that. neither did he want to purge. but there wasn't an escape this time.

"hoseok, did you get that?" seokjin asked, waving a hand in front of his eyes and taking the towel of his forehead. hoseok nodded in response, and drank some water.

"please eat that." jimin sat down next to him and pointed to the container of kimbap. "please." he said again, looking down this time.

hoseok let out a big sigh, but finally gave in. "alright, i'll eat it."

"the whole box." the boy with green highlights in his hair said as he crossed his arms.

"no-"

"yes. i understand you're older than me, but i'm worried, hyung, that's all. please, i beg- WE beg you, eat the whole roll." taehyung said again, with a very serious tone, which he almost never spoke in. very very rare ocassions.

hoseok felt bad. but mostly guilty. he caused so much pain. should he really eat? he slowely oppened the box, and took very small bites of the kimbap piece. he chewed carefully, and it was like he could taste the calories, but he kept going for his members. he soon forgot he was even eating, because they all started talking about different subjects. but jimin was very careful on how hoseok acted, and he knew what he was doing.

"god fucking dammit hoseok, you stupid fuck, why so emotional?"