Being Hope

Sadness

When I got home all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and cry, not because of what Holly said to me, but because I had missed my mom. She was so strong, she used to get bullied a lot in high school, but that never bothered her, I guess that's where I got my high self esteem from. Now that she was gone I didn't know what to do, and the music I was listening to didn't help at all. I had mistakenly turned on Bring Me The Horizon, so I just ended up crying about everything wrong in my life. Asher and my dad were at work so the only person I had to keep me company was Linda. I just ended up staying in my room. What an awful Monday that was. The next day I awoke from my bed happily and refreshed. I went to the bathroom and did my hair and makeup. Then went downstairs and got some cereal, if Holly was going to make my day bad, at least I looked 'pretty'. "My darling little sister, you've finally awoken from your slumber. I love you so much!" Asher said with an extremely happy tone, why was he so happy? "Hey Hope." My dad said with a smile. It looked forced and unbelieving maybe he was that way because my mom's birthday was coming up, and this was the first year that she wasn't going to be here to see it. "Honey, get me the milk and turn down that nonsense, it'll rot your brain, if you wanna listen to some true music, put in one of my classical CDs and 'rock' out to that." Linda said to Asher while giving me stank look, she was always nicer to him than to me, maybe because he excepted her more than I did. When I walked through school doors, I got a look of disgust from everyone. What was going on? One girl told me to go to the bathroom and that's where all the drama went down the walls were covered in all types of nasty things about me.
She's such a slut, I caught her making out with Max in the library
Haha ikr, look how fake she looks
Ikk! She looks like a wannabe Barbie reject
Lmfao

I was honestly amused at all the comments. I knew they couldn't be real because one they're about me and two we'd only been in school two days, and I'm pretty sure there's no one named Max in this school. I walked into first period and again there was that same look of disgust in everyone's eyes, even Athena's. The only person who didn't look at me like that was Shane, he just flashed that beautiful prince charming smile and that's all the reassurance I needed. Athena snapped at me "I thought you were different! I thought you weren't some stuck up slut face Barbie doll, but obviously I was wrong. You know what I hate you Hope! I hope you rot in hell!" With that Athena turned around practically in tears. I don't even understand stand what I did. But you what, that's her lost. She's just as brainwashed as all the other kids here.