Only Hope

Chapter 5 - Part One

Past

~Serena~

His lips moved down to my collarbone, sucking and biting gently. I swallowed hard and tried to capture my breath. Oh god were people suppose to feel this good, just by that. Lucas came back up to kiss me on the lips and looked me in the eye. His brown eyes were captivating...my brown eyes to look at forever.
I felt his manhood pressing against my thigh and I swallowed hard again. This is going to be so unpredictable, I felt nervous and calm at the same time. The warmth I felt from Lucas comforted me.

"Serena, are you sure you're ready?" Lucas asked, trying not to let his nervousness get the best of him. His palm was caressing my cheeks. Turning my head to the side, I kissed the inside of his palms and whispered a yes.

Kissing me passionately, Lucas tried to enter me softly. Gasping between kisses, I tried hard not to the let tears spill from my eyes. The pain was bearable but the love I felt at that moment took all the pain away and that's what made me want to start crying.

"Babe, are you ok?" Lucas questioned, stopping his movements. It had started to feel better and I'll probably be sore afterwards, but I wanted this moment to last.

"Yeah, I'm feeling perfect." With that, leant up to kiss him and he started thrusting into me slowly.

"I'll get better at it," Lucas said with his arms around me. After the lovemaking, we just laid on his bed talking about non-important things. Thankfully his parent and the twins were out of town, at Lucas's grandparents place.

"I don't care if you were the worse at sex, you're you."

"But don't girls love it when a guy knows how to work it,"

"Oh my, work it? Really? Well if you would like to know, um you were pretty good at it." He made me feel comfortable, loved, beautiful and at peace. He was amazing at it. It could be my first time but all those emotions that ran through me, sent set fireworks off in my heart.

"I love you, Serena." His face was hovering above mine, taking in my appearance. Our breaths were mixing with one another. Our nose softly rubbing against each other. "You're everything to me. A part of me that I've grown to love so much, it's the part of me that only matters," tears of happiness were cascading down my cheeks and onto the pillow beneath me. "You will always be my heart. We're seventeen and some people might say there's a whole world and world full of people to fall in love with, when you're that young especially. Heck, Serena when I think of you or look or you, feel you or kiss you, you are my entire world." He's the only person I want to be in love with.

"I love you too. Your declaration means everything to me. You will always and forever mean everything to me," leaning up I kissed his chest, right where I felt his heartbeat pounding against my lips.

Two days after and I was looking between Jude and Mila, they were both quiet. A bit too quiet from their usual self. Jude kept glancing at me like I should be the first one to speak. Mila, on the other hand look like she was going to faint from nothing really. I wasn't going to talk unless one of them did. I was wondering if Lucas was doing fine in his math exams. Thinking about him brought up those sweet memories from two days ago, filled with love. We made love about one more time after that. The smile forming on my face from his words had distracted me from the scene in front of me.

"You know what Serena. We fucked," Jude blurted out dispite the heated argument between him and Mila. She shot up from where she was sitting and pointed a finger at him.

"We had sex, and it was a mistake." Mila snapped gathering her things. I tugged on her arms and stopped her.

"What? When? And how" I questioned with disbelief. I'm glad that Jude is finally over me and we are great friends, he better not have used Mila for his own pleasure.

"We had sex at some party two weeks ago, everyone was drinking and going crazy. We happened to be some of those people. We were drunk and the next day we woke up naked and tangled with each other, I hardly remember." Jude explained, while Mila shot him daggers.

"I bet you weren't even drunk," Mila muttered, her hair was coming loose from her high ponytail.

"Yeah, yeah. Always make me out to be the bad guy. Mila, I like you. You're like a sister to me. It was awkward waking up to find you next to me," if only he knew. That's when Mila had it and rushed away, leaving her belongings.

"Jude, learn not to be an ass when you talk. You know her feelings towards you and you say stuff like that,"

"She can't feel that way about me. She speaks shit about me all the time. And a guy has got to keep his pride in check. You've seen the way she speaks to me, ouch." Jude countered, rubbing his chest as if someone hit him.

"I'm going to let what you just said slide. Let's go find her and you better apologize," I told him, grabbing his arms.

"Me apologize? She basically called me a rapist. I would never take advantage of her or someone else. I was too drunk too stop and she probably was as well,"

"Jude, girls say dumb things to guys when they like them. I'll apologize on behalf of Mila. Sorry, she didn't mean that. There."

"Ok. Let's go find that psycho..... Ow" he winced as I elbowed his ribs.

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Ok so this is part one of chapter 5 ... Hope you enjoy it. Read, comment and vote.