BTS One Shots

Namjoon's(RM) One Shot: When you find out he has feelings for you

"I have to go where? With who? You must be drinking too much because you did not just say that I have to go on a trip with Namjoon." I said as I started to pace around in Bang PD's office. "Now, Y/N, I know he isn't your first choice to start off this photoshoot with, but let's just do it and move on to the next. You're our best photographer, can't you just get over the little things he picked on you about?" Bang PD said as I rolled my eyes at him, "That's very insensitive of you to say, but whatever. We'll go to this place, check it out, and take some photos. Next time, give me a schedule of who I am going to be paired with so there's no face to face fuss." I commented before I walked out of there. I guess I got to deal with Namjoon's bitch ass alone yet again. He is such an asshole to me, always shoving me, hitting me, and treating me like I'm his fucking carpet. I am so done with that shit, once I see him I am going to tell him to treat me like a fucking adult since that's what I am. "Look, Y/N, it's not that big of a deal. He's a really nice guy once you get to know him." I rolled my eyes as I was talking on the phone with Yoongi, "Oh shut up, you have a massive crush on him since forever. Of course you would think he's a nice guy. Also, I've been your groups photographer for 11 months now, trust me, I've tried to get to know him and it's the same shit every time." I said back as I was getting into my car to head to their house. "Correction, I don't have a crush on him, I have a crush on Hobi, so let's get that straight. Just try and get along with him, he would be a great friend." "Ok fine, I'll try and get along with him. I'll talk to you later, I'm driving right now." I replied as I ended the call after we exchanged goodbyes.

    Let's get this over with, I got to the boys house and rang the doorbell. "It's fine, just act like you can tolerate him for one damn second." I told myself before the door opened and I was face to face with Taehyung. "Hey Tae, I'm here to get Namjoon for a possible photoshoot concept and destination." I stated as Tae nodded at me and let me in the house. "Sounds like a cool idea, is it a forsure idea?" Tae asked me, I nodded my head and began to speak "It looked good in the pictures, and Bang PD wasn't against it. So, if I take good photos, hopefully it turns out well." Taehyung smiled at me, he was about to say something until I heard a "AYE IT'S Y/N!!" I rolled my eyes hearing Namjoon's gigantic destructor feet slam against the floor and getting closer and closer to my proximity. I didn't want to turn around because I knew exactly what he was going to do and I don't feel like falling on my ass today. I heard him speed up to me, I felt his arm hit the back of my neck as I kept myself standing straight. He got me in a headlock and said "How are you doing camera lady?", I hung my arms down and said in a disinterested tone"I'm fine Joon." I was able to squeeze my head out of his hold, and fixed my hair. "We got to get going it takes a full hour to get there, and we have to be there for at least two hours. So let's head out now because I don't want to come home late." I said as I exited the house already feeling annoyed, I said bye to the boys and waited for Namjoon to hurry up and get in my car. About 10 minutes he was coming out in a full suit, it was chilly weather but not that chilly. We drove off from the house and we were driving in silence, once we got on the highway Namjoon started to mess with my radio. He got to a station and left it there and honestly there was some good music playing so I didn't mind.

    As the songs were changing, one song came on that we both knew, and we started to sing along to the radio. I have never heard Namjoon sing but I wasn't expecting this, "WhEn It'S CoLd OuTsIdE!!!" He screeched out, I started to bust out laughing, he stopped singing and looked at me with a confused expression. "Why are you laughing?" he asked me as I felt tears come out of my eyes for laughing too hard, I was able to catch my breath and say "Now I understand why you're part of the rapline because that was not good... like at all." I continued to laugh even more. "No, I am a good singer, listen to this....*clears throat* FoR NoW tHe DaY BlEeDs iNtO NiGhTfaLL." He began to sing once more and I completely lost it, my laughs started to become airy laughs where nothing was coming out, just silence and tears. I tried to focus and keep my composure but it was so hard to do. I started to think about the things that he does to make me upset and I managed to settle myself down. The music continued to play, but we weren't talking. The rest of the car ride was silent the rest of the way.

    "Ok, we are here." I said as I unbuckled my seat belt and woke up Namjoon, he began to say something, "This looks like a damn forest, this was your great idea?" I rolled my eyes once again, and replied "It's a damn park, bro you don't even know where my vision was going with this and you're already judging?? Let's just get this shit over with." I walked towards the park that had this playful yet nostalgic feeling to it. He started to pose in front of the slides but I could tell he was not feeling it. I  stopped to look at the pictures and it was not what I envisioned. "Namjoon, can you maybe put some more life into the photo? Didn't you ever go to the park as a kid?" I said to him while I was looking at the photos, "Yeah I went to the park but Y/N this is stupid, why couldn't we go into the city or something? Why did you pick this place?" He asked me, I felt my frustration grow more and more with him, then he continued. "I don't know why you're our photographer, at first you were great but your ideas have really gone down hill. Are you ok?" I held my camera in one hand and balled my fist up with another, I took a deep breath, then spoke to him. "Look Namjoon if you don't know my vision then don't question it. You never ask me the meaning behind the concepts as of recently, all you do is judge my thinking. I am fucking tired of you shitting on me, you rarely compliment me and when you do you have to follow it up with an insult, so what's the fucking deal Namjoon?" He looked at the ground and didn't look at me once, I rolled my eyes and said "Nevermind, let's just get this done so I can submit them and go to sleep early." We started again and I saw something I didn't quite understand what his facial expression was trying to say. "Namjoon, what's going on? You're not having that sparkle in your eyes at all, can you just say what's on your-" I said but he interrupted, "Stop calling me Namjoon." I gave him a confused look, and proceeded to ask, "What do you mean 'stop calling me Namjoon'? That doesn't make any sense, that's your name isn't it?"

    "Shit, that's not what I am trying to say, Ugh, I'll just blurt it out. Y/N, I have major feelings for you, and I don't know how else to show it." He said with a great amount of speed, I felt my hands drop in disbelief. No fucking way, no way, this cannot be happening right now in the middle of a damn park. I didn't know what to do or to say, so I did what any normal person would. I turned around and ran away from him....... Ok, so maybe it wasn't normal, but I have replayed this kind of scene over and over in my mind so much that I am freaked out that it actually fucking happened. "Y/N! Wait!" Namjoon yelled as I heard him running to catch up to me. "Fuck, I'm too damn slow!" I said to myself trying to run faster, he caught up to me and I felt his hand wrap around my wrist to prevent me from running anymore. I was out of breath and he said, "Y/N, just hear me out for a second." I kept breathing and he started to talk once more, "I know I haven't treated you the best but I really do have feelings for you and I really do not know how to express them. I know I'm not your first choice, but I am completely fine with being your last. I see you laugh and smile with the other members and I have wanted to make you laugh and smile like that for so long and seeing that I am able to do that made me realize that I should be honest about my feelings for you. And my judgemental comments, I only say shit like that because I was so used to getting a rise out of you. I don't want to do that anymore, I don't want you to feel like you mean nothing to me, because for the past 8 months, you've been everything to me." I felt my eyes welt up with tears because I've been having feelings for him too but didn't want to accept them due to how he's been treating me, "Ok Joonie, I'll be honest with you. I have feelings for you too, but I have been hiding mine because of how you've been treating me and honest-" I said as his lips crashed into mine, his lips were so soft and the rhythm between us was too perfect. He pulled away and placed a kiss on my forehead then said "I'm sorry for everything I've done, I hope you forgive me." I pulled on his coat to pull myself on my tips toes to be eye level with him, then said "A few more kisses like that and you'll be forgiven."